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Hmmph.. nothing much.. just feel like writing something here.. today celebrated grandma's birthday (dad's side).. 81 years old liao.. Haha.. not really close to her la.. but this type of things alwiz make me feel a little bit of touching.. she is a lucky granny.. so many ppl celebrate with her.. she has 4 sons and 2 daughters.. my dad is the 4th son.. so.. 4 of the sons were here.. with almost all her grandchildren.. except those not in kl (like my sis) and got 1 of her daughter + 1 more daughter (grandfather got 2 wives =p) she even have great grandchildren liao.. lucky grandma.. still hav so many ppl celebrating with her.. =)

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know wat? these 2 days i've seen something.. omg.. it's really bad.. i've noticed a gal.. im not sure whether she was pampered or wat.. but somehow i feel that the attitude really got a little bit of prob.. i admit.. i might be like that the last time.. but luckily.. i've changed n now that when i look at ppl.. im relieved that im not like that.. this gal.. around the same age as me.. alwiz scold her bf for nothing.. omg.. i damn sad wei seeing her bf.. he is quite nice la actually.. talked to him around 5 mins.. (but im not really sure la.. just simple talk.. n dunno how their relationship works.. cant really comment much.. but i just think that a relationship shudnt be like that.. but not sure.. mayb some ppl prefer it to be like that =p)

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She scolded her bf for being late.. she scolds him for this and for that.. it's like everytime meet up.. the bf also kena scold de.. i bet the guy will counter 1 day.. that's just not the way man.. omg.. sad la.. she expects the bf to come fetch her whenever she calls or mayb gives a few hours earlier notice.. but somehow.. u have to fetch her.. omg.. isnt that being not understanding?? kesian man.. i told my mom.. if u have such a 'sam pou'.. sure gonna suicide.. lolz..

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then i've noticed this same gal again.. haha.. she can comment on many stuffs.. and will say that she hates this and that.. then start kutuk-ing ppl.. not those jokingly.. it's very serious type of kutuk.. for example.. got 2 old couple.. alwiz take the mic and choose songs to sing.. like karaoke la.. then she kutuk alwiz also the 2.. cuz they sing all the old old songs.. then when got her mother go sing.. she says her mother dunno how to sing la.. then those who r there have to suffer cuz the voice not nice n stuffs.. we have to bear it.. omg.. sigh.. just told her.. ppl happy mai enough lo.. dun la so bad.. think until ppl like tat.. together so many ppl.. happy mai good lo.. just give applause to support la.. at least came up to sing ma.. haihz.. dunno la.. i swear i wun find a gal like that to become my gf..

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Carez

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tiring..

OMG.. Im damn tired man.. dush.. eyes also heavy.. but dun feel like sleeping yet.. worked for 2 days.. then it's like morning go out.. came back.. and go out again.. so it's like.. exhauted man.. but takpe la.. wat to do rite? hopefully get to go out with frenz next week.. just noticed that im gonna leave very soon and i really have to plan my holiday well.. really well.. or else.. there will b quite a lot of ppl that i dun get to meet actually..

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nothing much here.. just that.. tomolo i need to work again.. then hopefully not next week.. or else im really a bit short of time liao.. anyway.. i'll be coming back awhile in dec.. really awhile.. got a camp in genting from 7th dec to 9th.. gonna be here on 6th.. hopefully going back a bit late.. still not confirm yet.. c how la.. will post it here =)

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So.. hehe.. let me crap a bit again.. relationship again.. have been thinking much la.. not recently.. it's all this while.. after hearing much.. thinking much.. and stuffs.. finally.. i get to come out a conclusion.. my very own conclusion.. theoritically.. no one is gonna get the best bf/gf.. it all depends on oneself..

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One just have to be contented.. i really mean contented.. we choose ourself.. who gonna be our bf/gf.. and after all.. we really have to try the best to keep them! setting a mindset that he/she is really the best.. cuz.. try to think bout it.. there r so many ppl around.. im just 21 years old.. i bet i still gonna meet so so many ppl in the future.. and if i were really to get a gf now.. i can bet that at least 80% i can meet some1 better in the future.. whether we compare on look, figure, attitude or anything la.. i bet there will sure be some1..

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However.. here.. in my opinion.. the most important thing is that.. we have to know wat we want.. and when we really found some1 who is suitable.. and that's it.. keep it! cuz no1 is perfect.. we might think that meeting some1 better in the future.. but have u ever tot of how many some1 u will meet in the future? how many ppl u have the chance to change n change.. somehow.. someday.. u'll find that u have already missed 'The Best' and sometimes.. there's really no turning back.. So.. we have to know wat's the best for us.. when we get it.. just try our very best to keep it..

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I read somewhere bout the paddy field in frenster.. the 'love and marriage'.. Interesting story.. i just write the summary out.. It says that some1 is given a task to pick the biggest paddy in the paddy field.. but he only can go forward and cannot reverse.. so.. as he go n go.. he found the paddy got bigger.. so he keep on walking cuz he tot that there will alwiz b a bigger 1 in front.. but somehow.. he have missed the biggest 1.. and ended up not getting the biggest paddy.. and that's love..

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when he is given the another chance to find the biggest corn in the field with the same rule.. no reverse.. this time.. he carefully walked and pick the 1 that he think it's big enough.. and that's wat he get till the end.. this is marriage.. =) interesting huh?

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Haha.. at least i learn something from here =) hey hey.. nothing much la.. just hav something to write over here to share with u guys.. i've missed once.. and now.. guess im looking forward.. ya.. it's time to move on.. wait patiently and look for another who i call 'the best'.. =) someday.. i know.. she will appear.. wish me luck! Blessings to all my fellow frenz.. for those who already have.. appreciates him/her.. for those who still finding.. dun worry.. someday.. 'the one' will come and u'll find love.. =)

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Carez

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Im back!

So.. Finally im back to kl! haha.. but guess wat.. u wun believe it! i've stayed at home since i came back on sunday.. went out once.. to cut hair.. then came back.. never really go out of house.. haha.. strange huh? wat's happening to me? omg..

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Anyway.. spent few days here.. watching movies.. sleeping.. and reading a book.. haha.. dunno how far i could read.. guess wun really go until have way the book.. as usual.. hmmph.. ohya.. tomolo i gonna start working for my mom.. not sure gonna be how long.. due to some reasons.. so.. have to help out in this short holiday.. anyway.. everyone knows that i dun really like it.. but nvm.. haha.. wun really blame it la.. still gonna enjoy my holiday!!! yeah!

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hmmph.. would like to bring up a topic.. an arguable 1 i think.. i have heard.. and i have also seen this happen.. so.. im just wondering.. is there right or wrong.. a guy, A who is in love with a gal, X.. and somehow.. the gal is tackled by the good fren of the guy,B who knows that his fren is in love with the gal.. So.. in this case.. is there any fault play by B?

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Im really not sure bout this.. mayb at times we really have to see the situation i guess.. cuz.. love comes and goes.. and we dunno when it gonna come.. and when it comes.. whether we realise it anot.. we're already in love.. and it's really hard to resist at times.. mayb if we talk bout ethics.. it's really wrong to tackle the gal that ur best fren is in love.. but somehow.. B is already in love with X.. and in this case.. probably X already rejected A.. So.. A suppose to hate B for tackling X?

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Personally.. i think sure got a little bit em song.. but somehow.. when we really think bout it.. as a fren.. as long as they r happy then shud b alright.. although i understand that it really gonna hurt alot.. but.. they r in love.. something that comes naturally (we assume that B and X is real k? dun tell me B just playing around with the gal).. shud they resist the feeling cuz of A? 2ndly.. Mayb we can think that God is just testing us or something.. or A and X just dun hav the faith.. Anyway.. just think that there's really no right or wrong.. we shudnt really hate a good fren for that.. i bet B and X will feel guilty also.. I bet they have struggled not to let A knows bout it also.. and finally.. it's suffering also rite? dunno la.. any comment?

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Carez

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Finally.. Finish exam liao..

Hehe.. guess it has really been some time since i last update my blog.. Im here blogging again.. yay!!! Anyway.. it's 5.20am now.. And Im still here.. awake.. blogging.. few reasons i stayed up so late.. a guess in my room.. mayb wait till 6.30am to morning call someone.. after exam.. just finished cleaning up my room.. hehe.. and a game of dota (need to start training liao.. wat to do.. go back kl have to play with my dota gang rite? later i become so noob.. no good la =p)

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So.. How have i been? em.. so-so.. not really too good after all.. some of the subjects i did badly.. Anyway.. hopefully my pointer will be better than last sem.. and 3.0 and above of course.. =p not that hard actually this sem.. just that i really dun have the mood to study.. dunno y.. once my good memory already long lost.. couldnt really memorize even those formulas.. omg.. or mayb i really study last minute i guess.. haha.. 1 day b4 exam onli i really start studying.. b4 that i will sleep a day at least 10 hours and so.. hahaha.. really enjoying my study break huh? not good...

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Anyway.. past d.. dun really wanna talk bout it.. so.. I'll be coming back this sunday.. 12.30pm flight.. yay! gonna reach kl around 3pm.. hehe.. guess i gonna take a rest and something then onli start planning out my holiday.. still not sure when i gonna come back sabah actually.. hmmph.. still got something not sure over here.. cant really change my ticket yet.. sigh.. mom pulak like not that happy.. cuz need to change flight again.. sob sob.. cost me RM600++ to and fro this time after changing.. no good.. bad decision to go back.. shud have bought for CNY onli.. anyway.. it's ok.. =) cheers..

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Then.. let me bring up a topic here.. Hmmph.. how would i start.. haha..

Guess wat? i bet u guys heard b4 of even u did say b4 a phrase that goes "I am not becoming myself" or "Im changing to somebody else".. And then.. He will start telling himself or others that it shudnt be like that and so.. cuz he is no longer who he was..

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And now.. The very big question mark here.. personally.. (just tot bout it the other day) We are constantly changing.. Is changing to someone else is something bad? I dun think so.. it all depends.. in my opinion.. someone shud alwiz change for the better.. yes.. they shud.. not just bcuz they wanna be so called "himself" and start telling ppl and himself that he is no longer who he was.. Agree huh? Just a very simple example.. one who alwiz steal ppl's stuffs has his own personality.. can he actually says that he wanna keep his personality just bcuz that's who he is? no rite.. huh.. then.. hav u ever think of it when u alwiz say that "Im no longer who i was".. "Im not this kind of ppl".. frankly.. im one of them who alwiz say this.. but somehow.. after i tot of it.. hehe.. something goes wrong.. but at times.. it's really hard to change.. nvm.. just write it here to share with u guys.. mayb sometimes u can really think of it when u say that phrase whether it really affects ur decision anot =)

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Wong Theen Yoong

I have know this guy for many years liao.. i think when i was form 2 if im not mistaken.. then we had a small fight (I still rmb at the field) and it took us around 1 year like that to talk to each other again.. sigh.. apa lah.. just like a kid onli.. lolz.. back then wat.. i was a kid.. anyway.. after all.. same class since F3 till upper 6.. wow.. wat a long period huh? anyway.. i really appreciate this frenship between us.. and i know u do =) (hey hey.. not being gay.. just that.. buddy wat..) A guy who i can share everything with.. spent alot of good memories together.. drawing banner all night long in VI back then.. playing ping pong midnight in his house.. not onli him.. his brothers and also dad.. i really mean his dad.. wow.. haha.. then go out together.. double date alwiz.. haha.. really lots of stuffs.. and guess wat.. really need to thank u for alwiz being there to listen and giving advice.. haha.. frankly.. i think that u really very mature with all ur thinking and stuffs.. really a great guy.. a bit admire him in the way he do every stuffs.. really very into it.. the determination.. wow.. 1 word.. impressive.. A person who i can talk all night long till morning to share our stuffs.. and guess wat.. haha.. i think is one of the onli guy that i have really share my stuffs and cried out (i think a few times liao lo.. 2 or 3 times la) haha.. thanks man.. even the mother also treats me very good.. im thankful to have such a fren.. haha.. his mom even gave me a necklace bullet-liked with those god prayer or something.. haha.. just feel like own mom =) and I think really touched me..

"once Im very happy.. that u have urs.. and I have mine.. for i think both of us have the perfect pair for each other.. seriously.."

Haha.. really thank alot.. and i wun miss to find u when im back in kl de.. carez..

Frenz Forever

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Carez

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A Tribute to Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong....

Gosh.. I cant imagine that im doing this just 1 day before my final.. Anyway.. this thing really have been bothering me.. haha.. Im quite excited to pen down a little bout The Story of Uncle Lim.. Really a great guy.. I din know all this stuffs till he dies *Sorry Uncle Lim* Anyway.. This man is really someone who we shud look up to.. a great exemplary of Uncle Lim's Achievement!!!

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All this while.. I havent really been so excited bout current issue till this news came up.. i've been looking thru the news about the progress and all.. and most importantly bout his history.. omg.. u guys shud really check out *planning to buy his 'My Story' book.. Im really so into and admirer about Uncle Lim who could really see the future.. who could build Genting.. such a great place.. all by himself.. He developed Genting Highlands single-handedly.
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And actually b4 that with the year of 19th of his life.. from China’s Fujian Province.. came over to malaya.. with just $2 if im not mistaken.. then worked in many fields.. with his uncle.. then construction.. and he found his on way on iron mining and earned him millions thruout a year.. when ppl said that he is crazy with that idea in the 1st place.. when he saw Cameron Highland and start thinking bout this genting 'crazy plan'.. omg.. and he really did it in a place.. Gunung Ulu Kali.. was later built into the Genting Highlangs we have now.. Anyway.. Is really a great guy.. a person who is not really good in his BM and English but is respected by many.. *Really funny about a news bout him speaking BM to our current PM about the tax 1*
*I will surely pay a visit to Genting if i were to be in KL.. Can go see see GohTong Villa..




The founder and honorary life president of Genting Group

Genting Highlands

"Former MCA president Tan Koon Swan worked for Lim during the 1970s, some of which he fondly recalled as “quite hilarious.”
Tan who was hired as a general manager found Lim to be everything he was said to be – farsighted, energetic and capable.
“He was also a keen learner who wanted to know everything in depth and detail whether it was law, architecture or engineering. He would tell the professionals what he wanted and the way he wanted it.”
When the architect designing the first hotel in Genting returned to the site after a long holiday, he ex-claimed: “My God! I cannot recognise my baby anymore!"

"Lim spoke mainly Chinese dialects and Mandarin and a passable Malay and English. Up to his nineties, close aides still remember him using language tapes to brush up on his English.
But it obviously did not hinder his relations with the powerful and famous for Ong recalled Lim saying to Abdullah in colloquial Malay: “PM mau tolong sama gua, kita orang kerja kuat, kerja manyak susah, bukan senang untung manyak, tolong kurang cukai” (PM you have to help us, we work hard, it’s tough work, not easy to make money, please lower taxes). "

-From 24th Oct - The Star Online

*May Uncle Lim rest in peace*

Carez

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Next up.. Bro and Sis

Ok.. before i eleborate much on my bro n sis.. hehe.. would like to update u guys a bit.. so.. nothing much has happened.. went to see YB Melanie on 19th.. never tot that gonna meet her for so long.. chatted around 3 hours in her office.. not bad.. interesting.. enjoyed the time spent there.. know more bout the society.. country.. and listened to more views.. haha.. and know wat? again.. i was on newspaper.. asia times.. 21st Oct.. Hehe.. just 1 year plus in sabah.. haha.. already around 3 to 4 times on newspaper.. haha.. compare to kl.. hmmph.. got la.. 3 times also =p not bad huh.. haha..

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Then.. hmmph.. got sms-ed.. 22nd midnight.. 2.21am..

"Sila dtg ke pjumpaan khas bsama tnc hep jam 11am, Isnin 22hb Okt....."

What the.... Haihz.. i dunno whose fault is it to call for meeting at the wee hour.. and the meeting is just few hours away.. i really hate this type of last minute information.. sigh.. but wat to do.. have to go also la.. but nothing much bout the meeting after all.. just a little bit of briefing for the upcoming convocation for sultan kelantan on 25th Oct.. Im wondering.. Is those sultan so free to come over to UMS to study for their PhD.. Dapat graduate pulak tu.. really geng.. So.. we gonna have a huge bazaar "Kelantan Fest, Kelantan Best" with many types of Kelantan food.. Yay!!! Fellow UMS-ians.. Come over to have ur lunch ya.. 1pm.. Free de.. no worry =)

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Brother

So.. would like to talk bout brother 1st.. Hmmph.. Know wat? actually.. i really a bit envy.. If really wanna compare both of us.. Haha.. Still too far for me.. no matter in looks.. knowledge.. and stuffs.. Haha.. all those aunties also alwiz praise u look so handsome and all.. haha.. where else.. i just there.. haha.. cant really say much.. but nowadays still feeling a bit better la.. haha.. at least there r ppl who praise me also =p although im not really as good as u.. i admit that.. knowledge wise.. u're great.. with high IQ and stuffs.. mature thinking.. somehow.. hmmph.. i tot im the 1 who is very playful since young.. who would play PS or computer games till morning without sleeping and all.. but after all.. now is ur turn pulak yang alwiz play games.. it shudnt be like that oh.. u shud concentrate more on ur work!!! mom alwiz also complain.. especially when u're supposed to help mom out in the office.. haihz.. haha.. she alwiz also say u do things very slow n stuffs.. u shud really buck up urself on this lo.. very 'lau hei' la.. moreover.. actually i've alwiz say that.. taking over our parents business is not really hard.. i estimated around 1 year or plus a bit shud n more than enough to take over the whole thing.. but.. u have been working so long there.. 2 years i think got la.. but.. sigh.. nothing much.. still need dad n mom to worry so many stuffs.. dunno whether is their fault who dunno how to pass down the stuffs for u or u dunno how to take the initiative to take over.. anyway.. now that u're in nikon company liao.. a company that u like.. hopefully u will perform well there n get the chance to go japan to further ur career ya.. all the best!!! btw.. i memang nv plan to take over parents business if possible.. i gonna study here for civil and i really hope to enroll in the thing that i study in uni.. next.. at times i really wonder.. 26 years old liao.. whether u really got couple yet anot.. haha.. ur look so good.. although now ur shape a bit out liao =p hehe.. still handsome de.. all these years.. u just stick to 1 gal.. im not sure whether still anot.. not sure whether worth it anot.. not sure whether a good thing or bad.. but it all depends on urself.. u know it best.. just take care there ya.. and buck up urself la!!! "1 more thing.. this is just personal opinion.. for me la.. doesnt matter la.. brother, sister or parents.. I wonder whether they have the responsibility to support the younger to further their studies anot? whether elder siblings support or parents..."

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Sister

Ok..Hmmph.. Now in UK.. and i hope that u will alwiz be great there.. although i know the life over there is not really as good as we think.. anyway.. it's really great that u went over for so long.. to have the chance to travel.. to be able to have a wider look in this world.. not onli stuck in malaysia.. working oversea.. bet it gonna be a great experience.. If compare u n brother.. is really a different person.. u act very fast.. among us.. u're the one with the best laugh.. u've done many things that ppl dun.. u've been very daring.. i bet the angle of u looking at things is different than many ppl.. u've experienced those illegal stuffs.. haha.. those 'dark' things.. and with all that experiences.. i bet u're sure with wat u're doing now.. as u've 'zhong ban' so many times liao.. after all.. u've turned to b a very hardworking person.. work hard.. and start ur dream.. to travel and all.. Im not sure when u gonna come back.. not sure whether u gonna come back to help mom out anot.. know that u're trying hard to apply the visa over there.. hope that u gonna get it in no time.. take care there.. bet mom gonna be worry bout u.. and will be happy if ever u come back to take over the business.. as i think u really have the capability.. although u din really pursue much in ur studies.. but with those experiences that u've gained in these years.. i bet u gonna be a good businesswoman.. haha.. it has been quite some time since the last time i saw u.. 1 year plus liao lo.. hope to c u soon then.. take care over there la..

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

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Hmmph.. Nothing much happen recently.. but just some thought of mine..

Woke up quite early morning today.. Around 8am.. Went down.. have a cup of milo.. with biscuits.. listen songs with my hp.. The atmosphere is just nice.. It was quiet.. and really have the feeling of day dreaming.. dreamt for almost an hour.. suddenly housemate woke up liao.. that was when i stopped and continue sleeping.. till noon.. =p

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Anyway.. day dreamt alot.. And i really like it.. Dreamt bout her.. Wonder bout my single life.. and i think bout so many stuffs.. and would like to share a little of course.. I even tot of making a list out.. but that gonna take a long time.. so.. nvm.. next time mayb.. a list of ppl that i appreciate.. who have big impact in my life.. i would really like to list them out.. at least i have a chance to thank them and all (if there's really (touchwood) something bad happen to me..)

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I have alwiz like to live in my history.. i really like my past.. mayb cuz each time i think bout it.. i would onli think bout those sweet moments that i have had in the past.. that's y i like it very much..

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There r just too many ppl i would like to list them out.. anyway.. let me just list a few of them 1st.. (1 more thing - the position doesnt matter much k - a little mayb) I apologise if u dun like me to put ur name here.. but just wanna tell u that that is where u r..

-Tan Yoke Teng

-My Family

-Wong Theen Yoong

-Kevin Yee Peng Kee

-Lisa Khoo Suan Kim

-Chua Ang Tze & Leong Ai Leng

-Scout frenz

-Dota gang (Ken.. Jia Hun.. etc)

-Few of my F6's classmates (Yuan Lih.. etc)

-The SAB-ians + susu + Jin Kiat

-My coursemates especially the 2

-Sakai gang?

*Sorry if i really leave out a few of u..

*This list is just for this moment.. there will be changes as time goes by..

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I really appreciate all the moment that we have spent together.. There r sweet and memorable..
*Dun be sad bcuz it's over, be happy bcuz it happened*

Really a good phrase.. and I have alwiz hold onto this phrase..

Next time i gonna eleborate on each of the 1 i list there.. really wanna thank 1 by 1..

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Tan Yoke Teng

Haha.. never really tot that after almost 2 years of breaking up.. u can now be on the top of my list.. anyway.. mayb i've grown more mature and start thinking back bout the past.. and realised tat.. u're really a very very good gal.. (I know i know.. there r still alot out there.. and i may find some1 better.. but this is for now) We have spent 1 year plus together.. ppl might say that it's onli 1 year.. and that's not long.. but for me.. spending 1 year plus together.. meeting each other in skul everyday.. and even weekends at times.. spending almost everyday after skul for lunch and all.. it makes me feel like being together for years.. and i've already adapted to the lifestyle.. speaking cantonese and expressing myself in english.. the way we communicate with each other.. the way u blended into my family.. The way u made my family closer.. blah blah blah.. all in all.. u're just great.. letting u go was one of the worst thing that i've done.. Anyway.. i've understood that that was the past.. and that i also accepted it.. just that at times.. those memories will flashback.. Things had happened.. and if i were to ask u to accept me back.. haha things wun b the same.. i bet we will probably be kekok and stuffs.. and i dun really put much hope here also.. just wanna tell u that.. i really appreciates all the moment we spent together.. all the ups and downs that we have been thru.. anyway.. i will still be there as always.. and i hope to have some news from u also.. mayb some major change in ur life.. (going thru surgery and stuffs.. i understand that u wun have the time n all to report to few person.. but i hope to know if there's really any special things happen to u.. whether they r good or bad) I will alwiz pray for u.. god bless..

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My Family

This is the hard thing.. how would i say.. Hmmph.. Guess im mature enough to comment.. Im already 21.. Dad and Mum.. I might not b a good son.. And I cannot really blame u guys also.. Cuz i know u guys work real hard for us.. But.. Im not sure whether u guys realise it anot.. I dunno what it means by love.. and im searching hard for it when i was young.. Frankly.. i have not really feel any love from u guys.. (by actions, by words nor heart..) All that i know.. was that.. u guys work real hard.. but din really spend much time on me.. and that's y i have alwiz put priority on my frenz.. cuz home is not the place that i could really find the word love.. But as i grow up.. ok.. i can feel a little.. but not by actions n stuffs.. is just the feeling.. cuz u guys still the 1 who brought me up.. parents.. i know i know.. there r so many phrase.. *which parents dun sayang their children and stuffs* but somehow.. a little hard.. Anyway.. I shud thank u guys also.. The way u guys treated 3 of us.. the way how strict u guys treated us had finally made us the men n woman.. The way u scolded us.. punished us and stuffs.. That have made me called myself independent since secondary.. tat i can handle my stuffs myself.. i seek help from frenz.. and not family.. i dun wanna burden u guys.. anyway.. really thanks alot for bringing me up all these years.. haha.. dun worry.. mum.. u alwiz say that u're afraid that no1 gonna 'yeung' u when u gets old.. dun worry bout it la.. 3 of us know wat to do.. or at least i do.. and dad.. haha.. sorry for all the scoldings that i've done.. I knew that i shudnt be shouting at u at times.. but.. sigh.. i apologise.. but i really hope that u will know ur faults.. bro n sis.. nothing much.. just hope that u guys gonna have a great life ahead.. take care my family.. haha.. n here is the 1st time i guess.. the 1st time i say that out.. not verbally.. but at least something.. I Love You guys..

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Em.. 1 thing.. those who have read here.. u dun have to mention anything in front of me.. this is another private thing that i consider.. so.. if u wanna leave comment.. just leave it here.. hope that this is not gonna be another public topic.. Hope that u understand.. I just feel like writing it out here onli..

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Till the next time i blog again.......

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Time to Update...

Ok.. Where shud i start.. It has been a mess.. I dun really know wat I've been doing in the past 1 weeks plus after my last blog.. Just feel lazy and stuffs.. and now that im having study break.. it makes me worst.. have been sleeping everyday.. more than 10 hours per day i think.. biasa la.. when yan chin fei start to study.. then sleep la.. half an hour of study.. an hour of sleep.. that's how it works.. hehe =p

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Anyway.. let me update u guys a little.. hmmph.. taken over exco akademik.. din really get to do much things.. as now is the study break.. then hari raya came by.. ohya.. hari raya.. 13th.. 1st day.. wat do i have.. oh.. an event in kg cd, one of the hostel.. nothing much there.. just prepare food for students who din go back.. especially the malays who stay here.. but.. there r just a few of them as around 3 weeks holiday leh.. if i were to have the chance.. i also wanna go back la.. but i really wonder whether they will study anot when they got back to their home.. as final is coming very soon o...

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then.. second day.. went over to Vice Chancelor's house to have lunch.. another open house again.. just eat eat.. then take pictures.. nothing much also la.. just like that lo.. then on 16th.. an american astronaut, Robert Hood came over to give talk.. not bad.. at least i understand a bit of wat our Dr. Sheikh Muzafar doing or where he went.. Hehehe.. he is really leng zhai oh.. If i can b like him.. Wah seh.. hahaha..

VC and I at VC's house

And now.. Im studying here.. Very sien liao.. schedule not nice la.. for the 1st week.. mon to fri also got paper.. not easy leh.. 4 of the papers is really hard de.. need to study alot.. no gap in between la.. quite hard for me to study actually.. although i finished damn early.. 9th nov.. but how many days can i tong siu??? haihz.. anyway.. i still have to study ya!!!

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ohya.. hehe.. went to pub with my fren the other day.. before raya la.. hehe.. raya eve.. almost forgot.. nice wei.. i like the place.. many ppl there the other day.. went with 1 of my fren.. drank 2 botol.. haha.. luckily still can tahan.. hehe.. then win a pool game with him some more after drinking them.. hehe.. not bad leh.. then the time we go.. ngam ngam.. they have performance.. wow.. leng luis dancing leh.. haha.. few minutes la.. then that place can sing like karaoke.. not bad de.. usually not many ppl de wo.. can sing n drink.. like that place.. sure will go another time.. hehe.. after exam mayb..

leng luis dancing.. Hehe.. seldom c it.. Nice place indeed..


Then would like to talk a bit personal stuff.. After becoming YB here.. I've realised that.. A bit 'em guan'.. some of the ppl around start calling me YB and all.. haha.. dun really like the name actually.. just coming out to compete for a place and c wat i can do for the ppl around.. but the word YB.. dun think it suits me.. And.. That makes a conclusion that.. i dun think i will take this path in the future.. haha.. dun think i will become a politician or YB.. dun really like the way ppl who will focus on u.. haha.. im really no used to it.. and i dun wan also.. just become a worker in a company.. whether big or small is better than this..

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Haha.. anyway.. choosing this path is just an experience.. at least i experienced this b4.. and i know that this doesnt suit me.. dun like to b in the spotlight.. i wan a simple life in the future.. can earn enough money.. give parents.. for wife.. children dun wan so many lo.. the most 2 enough lo.. or dun wan also can.. dun really like children.. very fan de.. hehe.. better save money n travel with gf or wife.. it gonna be a fun journey!!!

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

EXCO Akademik

Haha.. Somehow.. I have changed from EXCO Penerbitan dan Informasi to EXCO Akademik.. Em.. How do I say? Am I really happy bout it? Haha.. Have no feeling actually.. I chose to be in EXCO Akademik in the 1st place.. then after all.. I got PI.. And I already accepted the fact.. and started to plan bout it.. And now.. suddenly changed to Akademik.. Hmmph.. I also dunno wat m i suppose to feel.. Anyway.. I'll still give my best to serve my uni no matter wat position i take..

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Nothing much besides that.. So.. Allow me to crap a little here..

It's 4.30am now.. Just came back from fren's house.. Just now yum cha.. Chatted about something.. which I am lack of or I just dun get it yet.. Frenz.. I dun really know how to handle it.. The close frenz around me dun really stay long.. most of them mayb close to me for months or around 1 or 2 years.. then.. somehow.. our relationship will get further..

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The thing is that.. Why does this happen???

What I could say is just that.. I have limited time for myself.. And that my frenz keep on adding when I join activities.. Yes.. those frenz i might not consider as very close.. but as we involve in these activities.. We're supposed to find them.. chat with them.. exchange opinion and so on.. and this makes me have not enough time for most of the ppl around me..

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One more thing is that.. I've started to realise that.. They r just too many ppl who have helped me out no matter when im doing activities or when im in class.. And I just dunno how to pay them back.. That's 1 of the reason y i dun really like to ask for help if something that i can do it by myself.. As i really dunno wat i can do to pay back all the 'debts'.. It's really hard u know.. sometimes when u think of it.. it's like they help me so much.. I've to find them out to at least yum cha and have a chat.. However.. if I really do that to every1.. Then I dun think I gonna have enough time for myself after all..

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Some might say.. y not u just ask a bunch of frenz.. the same gang out at 1 time.. Hmmmph.. I am just not that kind.. I like to approach ppl in a small group.. not a big group.. and that's me.. some might say that I shud learn.. I can.. adapt myself in a big group.. but at times.. when i dun need to.. I would rather be myself.. =)

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Heard from my fren that ppl in the class labelled me as someone who dun really frenly in my class.. Haha.. as i dun really mix around in the class.. go to class.. sit down.. go home after lecture.. especially in my 1st year.. Apa boleh buat.. I memang like that de wo.. Takkan wan me to laugh around n chat with all the ppl in the class.. im just now like that.. in such a big group and all the ppl talking mandarin.. it's just hard for me at times.. haha.. dunno la.. try to la.. somehow.. they are the one who have voted me.. I shall not just sit and keep quiet and stuffs..

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

EXCO Penerbitan dan Informasi...

So.. sunday.. consider a bit free in the morning.. cleaned up my room a bit liao.. looks better.. not really bersepah like how it used to be.. din really study also although i'll be having my midtern on next tuesday.. Somehow.. a bit lazy i think.. sunday also got 2 meetings to attend..
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Meeting at 2pm.. got a bit of amanat from the previous batch of MPP.. although there were only 5 of them who attended the meeting.. they just got to know that morning itself bout the meeting.. so.. whose fault is it? hor..
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Then at night.. 8.30pm.. meeting chaired my NC.. forming our cabinet.. So.. after all.. got EXCO Penerbitan dan Informasi.. Hmmph.. not really the 1 that i wanna get.. never expect i would get such a position also.. frankly.. a bit disappointed.. although i have voiced up.. but.. it was in vain.. However.. still acceptable la for me.. at least i was the editor back then when i was in f6.. so.. hopefully i can tunaikan my tugas as good as possible.. cross my fingers..
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To Strive,
To Seek,
But not to Yield!
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Carez
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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

update update.. shaked hand with PM!!!

Haha.. guess wat? not even one week im taken up this mpp thingi and im really like half dead.. Too many meetings going on la.. a bit hard to cope.. cuz assignment also need to pass up.. test also coming..

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Anyway.. last thurs was a damn busy day.. really whole day meeting as expected.. Guess wat? suddenly got this mpp meeting at around 9am.. when over for a little bit briefing and got to know that we gonna meet PM on coming sat.. wow.. then straight away all went to the shop n get our baju melayu.. gosh.. wat can u expect more.. yan chin fei looks just like a malay.. then came back around 11 something at night.. no water.. went to fren's house to take bathe.. then slept for few hours till 4am.. Tot of studying as friday i have a test with weightage of 15%.. after all.. i din really study much.. cuz really tired n sleepy.. manage to study a bit of it onli..


Then 2pm went for exam.. copied my fren's punye a bit.. handed up.. haha.. dunno wat i wrote also.. dun care la.. final is more important rite? lolz.. i will work harder for finals.. hopefully nothing much in the study break la.. then go back.. do assignment at fren's house.. n a bit of yum cha.. till 4am.. came back sleep awhile till 8 something.. then continue my assignment.. got to finished it n passed to my fren.. then go for lunch.. motor sudah rosak.. go repair.. again.. then 3pm liao.. a bit late for my meeting at 3.30pm.. reached at 4pm.. not many of them there also.. dun care..



Then 4.30pm like that bertolak to DUN - dewan undangan negeri.. Yay!!! 1st time ya.. wah.. the place is nice.. went to the banquet hall.. awaiting for PM.. nothing much happen.. take our dinner n all.. chatted awhile with YB Melanie also as she was there.. then SHAKED HAND with PM after the majlis buka puasa ended.. geng leh.. saw other ministers also.. hehe.. came back no water '''-_- again..



Anyway.. nothing much la.. tomolo gonna have a meeting with mantan mpp.. then at night gonna choose my exco.. heard that they gonna change many of the exco like those government de ministers' name.. not sure how it works also.. i shall c tomolo n decide on wat exco shud i take..
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Carez
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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Very pack!

Ok.. before i eleborate on the 'very pack'.. talk bout the election thingi awhile 1st.. So.. As i've said.. won a seat in my skul.. There r 10 chinese out of 34 seats in the MPP this year.. 2 from labuan.. 2 umum.. and 6 school.. compare to last year.. we had 6 of them onli.. It's really a great achievement.. thanks to the mantan mpp who have fought for us.. thanks for their guidance and support.. *appreciate that*

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So.. Hehe.. got the highest votes among the contestants in my skul.. but the difference is not that much with 545, 523, 503, 485 (if im not mistaken).. actually there r 5 of them.. but can forget bout the contestant no 1.. haha.. it's really a tough fight and im glad that the result is as expected.. 2 chinese and 1 indian.. (not being racist.. just mention onli) cuz i think that 3 of us can work better than the other 1..

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Then.. bout umum.. a great achievement having 2 chinese.. compare to last year.. we have none of them in as ppl claimed that they cheated.. but this year is really tranparent.. we can see everything clearly.. and im really glad bout that.. at least we can c the thing that we've fought back n the real result.. Anyway.. now thinking bout the exco im gonna take.. hopefully i'll get academic.. ppl tot i'll take kebudayaan.. but.. haha.. im not really interested in it.. cuz im not really a good person in doing 'program' and this activity.. i know myself well.. and i wanna learn new things rather than staying in that department.. =) i still can giv advice wat in other exco..

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Just came back not long ago from yum cha-ing with 1 big bunch of my coursemates.. around 15 of us i think.. haha.. yum around 2 hours.. treat them yum cha.. but some of them left early and paid themselves.. no good la.. i tot i said i pay for u ma.. aiseh.. anyway.. spent around 20 plus onli.. haha.. my budget was far higher than that.. they really 'bei min' =p anyway.. thanks for those who have voted for me.. and those who willing to come out to vote.. at least they took the responsibility to come forward and vote..

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Ok.. about the pack thingi.. omg.. guess wat.. it's 2.15am now.. just received msg that well be meeting hep fella tomolo morning at 9am.. omg.. i'll be having my french oral in between 11-1.. then presentation between 2-4pm.. then meeting about pesta ang pow at 4pm.. to dunno wat time la.. haihz.. very pack.. then i gonna have test on friday with weightage of 15% - constuction tech.. omg.. then still got assignment need to pass up next mon.. then test again next tues.. guess this weekend i gonna hav meeting bout the mpp choosing exco again.. btw.. tomolo night i gonna hav meeting again also.. shit man.. how m i suppose to study for my coming exam on friday??? no time wei.. damn shit.. c how la.. guess i shud b able to cope with that.. hopefully la.. *wat a last minute person*

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Tired..

Hmmph.. really tired liao.. dunno y.. start to feel tired and all.. actually i think i have enough sleep la.. shud have around 5 hours of sleep la.. but feel that my eyes very heavy.. haha.. nowadays really lazy liao.. dun feel like blogging also.. anyway.. just write a bit bit here la.. wun b long la.. dun have so much time also..

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So.. tomolo gonna be the day.. the election day.. suppose to go there early and all to c they seal the box so that there's no cheating and all.. lazy la.. need to wake up early.. anyway.. although the election time is just few hours away.. but im very calm.. ppl ask me whether i excited anot.. i also dunno how to answer.. i have not much feeling actually.. dun feel anything also.. just wait for the result and all.. dun really think i mind that much about really getting a seat.. (mayb im confidence that i've promoted enough d)

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Somehow.. if really lose also i dunno wat to say.. although publisity is not very very very good.. but if compare to other contestants like my skul no. 1 and no. 2.. the other 3 is definitely better (this is personal opinion).. So.. if really lose.. i would say that those sktm ppl really a bit of blind.. haha.. just saying onli la..

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Anyway.. time to sleep la.. cuz tomolo need to wake up early.. wish me luck ya.. thanks..

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Friends..

So.. Hehe.. have a little bit of time.. blog awhile sin.. let me touch a bit of fren.. haha.. it has been a long week for me.. but after all.. i feel relieved.. as i still hav u (refers to those who have helped me out).. the 3 of u especially.. (2 guys and a gal) who have helped me out thruout this period.. who have sacrified for me.. who have done whatever u can for me.. i am touched..

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Ppl all say me PAP pengarah and all sure got supporters and all.. haha.. yes indeed.. but when it really comes to work.. it's just hard.. haha.. mayb really that i din ask for help la.. but.. im just not the type.. haha.. come forward if u feel like helping.. i dun force ppl to help me.. However.. sometimes it's just hard when ppl ask me.. why they r not helping u? haha.. which is a good question also..

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after all.. best fren or heng tai is not easy to find.. and im glad that with joining this mpp thingi.. i can really c who is the one.. the one that will really sacrifice.. the one who actually need to study and all.. come forward to help.. and im guilty bout asking u for help actually.. cuz u din really do well in ur test the other day..

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anyway.. i was lucky not to choose to go for 'umum' but just skul.. if i were to go for umum.. im gonna be damn bloody dead meat by now.. with just 2 or 3 fellas help.. mayb it's not really my frenz who dun wanna help.. my own prob.. cuz i dun usually ask for some1 to help.. but to wait for ppl to offer.. haha.. mayb that's the main reason.. somehow.. if u really c 1 of ur fren like dying d.. u would offer help.. that's wat i think.. or if u free.. also can offer help de..

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And i appreciate those who really help me out im this period when im so busy with things n all.. my coursemates.. frenz.. and all.. but haha.. a bit of disappointment with the ppl around me who will still demand me to do things when im half dead.. haha.. doesnt matter anymore..

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although ppl say.. when u gain something.. u will lose something.. but.. i will never regret choosing this path of mine.. and im ready for it.. i dun give a damn how ppl treat me.. as i believe im strong enough to stand by my own.. and with my heng tai.. is more than enough.. i dun need everyone to be with me.. i will never give up anymore..

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It's only with the heart one can see rightly,

What is essential is invisible to the eye.

-Antoine de Saint Exupery

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Summary..

Hey hey.. guys.. Im so sorry that it has been some time since i last update my blog.. really have been very very bz with my stuffs.. there r just too many things i would like to blog.. but dun hav the chance also.. not even this time.. just drop by to summarize the things that i've done since last sat i think..
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So.. last sunday.. i went to kudat.. for a field trip with my construction technology lecturer.. a very very very nice trip.. a relaxing day for me (at that time) as im quite fan with many things last week.. really like worry-free at that time.. as i really enjoy the trip very much.. with my coursemate.. we went to 2 traditional longhouse in kudat (i forgot the name.. will try to post in detail the next time..) the longhouse they do it themselves with kayu and all.. it reminded me bout me building my scout gadget.. haha.. it's really a bit similar.. with the platform using buluh.. but theirs is really damn nice.. with nipah leaves as roof.. pinang & buluh as platform.. jati i think as beams.. and many more.. it takes them 1 year plus to built it.. and according to them.. memang all of them know how to build.. is a tradition.. wow!
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ok.. next.. went to TIP OF BORNEO.. omg.. that's amazing.. will post the picture next time.. no time now.. in a hurry.. just write as much as i can now.. tip of borneo.. ppl say is very very nice here.. with great scenery.. finally i got to the place.. it was very very windy.. i really mean it.. i can almost blow a person away.. at times.. when we walk.. it was like a crab.. cuz the wind is just way too strong.. very nice.. very cooling.. we went at a quite good timing.. haha.. usually not like that de.. just nice weather.. but when we go.. wow.. windy.. and with all the pasir blow to us.. haha.. but we had a great great day.. nice pictures.. and all.. i enjoy that trip very much.. wondering if i were to go with my gf.. haha.. romantic la.. aiseh.. bila lah baru ada.. hahaha.. nvm nvm..
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then.. monday night started to do my banner for the election.. did for 2 nights.. slept for about 3 hours.. to do the banner.. as monday we get the form and fill in.. wed is penamaan calon.. so hav to get ready n all.. really tiring with just around 2 of my coursemates help me out.. wat a tiring day.. anyway.. enjoyed it.. reminds me of ty!! we did the banner and all when we were f4 n f5.. miss u man.. anyway.. go on.. tiring.. wed morning go penamaan.. then......
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This is a damn sad thing.. 2 of the chinese calon kena bantah n disqualified.. really damn sad man.. they did their banners.. got all prepared.. ready to go for battle.. and yet.. how can this happen.. im really sad for them.. my team mates.. i will promise to fight back the place.. for us!!! and i will not disappoint u all..
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Then wed night start putting up banners n posters around the school.. we did it damn early.. many of the other contestants din really put up yet also.. not even thursday.. haha.. i dunno whether i feel disappointed or relief.. cuz this doesnt really look like an election.. with ppl around like dun have the feel to do their work.. onli start putting up today (sat) wth.. i would say.. tak layak la.. left monday to promote.. then tues is election.. really damn slow lo.. dunno la.. like all also dun have the feel to do onli.. i know la puasa.. doesnt mean that u dun hav to compete.. still.. puasa.. know got disadvantage.. pandai2 la buat kerja efficient sikit.. haihz.. dun care la..
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then.. i think that's it la.. the summary.. next time onli post up my banner design n a bit of the pictures of my skul la.. ok la.. need to go la.. next time onli i crap more la..
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Carez
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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Another Bad Day..

Why??? Why??? Why do I have so many things to blog everyday??? I wish that 1 day I could just blog that.. It has been a nice and relaxing day.. A good memorable day.. A happy day ke.. or anything good la.. haihz..

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So.. what's the topic today??? As expected.. In the morning kena kutuk d.. today suppose to hav class at 9 but cancelled.. then got tests at 2pm.. went in class at 9.. ish.. ish.. just said tat im scared of my statistics.. then start la.. haha.. the thing..

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'dun zha sho ban mung ar u'

'u're being blacklisted d'

'i wun b cheated by u anymore' etc...

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No good.. haihz.. i also dunno wat to say liao la.. just defended myself a bit.. then i also dun care about them d la.. wanna say.. say la as much as u like.. i know myself well enough.. but mayb they r just joking la.. probably yes gua.. then teman them eat awhile as class cancelled.. then tetiba.. come another fren.. ish.. frenz.. many tau read my blog and start mentioning bout my thermo thing.. getting high marks and all.. i also like '''-_-

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Then my coursemates also say

'wah.. famous liao lo u.. all those ppl also know u d lo..'

haihz.. teruk wei.. anyway.. dun really care bout it liao la..

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But 1 thing i would really like to mention here.. this blog of mine.. the purpose.. for ppl to know more bout me.. and i would consider this a quite private thingi.. u dun hav to bring up my personal stuff in public.. u know it urself.. if got comment.. u can drop by here if u wan to.. dun hav to tell every1 bout wat im thinking, doing and all.. it's just my personal matter.. i just wanna let those who care bout me know bout wat's going on with me..

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then statistics no good.. as i really dun hav the mood n not enough sleep.. slept at around 5 something.. haihz.. i dunno what m i doing.. tot i can score this subject.. but ended up.. so teruk.. then my frenz also realised that me not 'zha sho ban mung' and all.. but ok la.. they r really good la.. just that.. joking playing around with the marks thingi.. but somehow.. let me ask something..

'If some1 who tell others that 1 fella get a very very bad mark in public is bad'

'does that means that some1 who tell others that that fella who get high marks in public is good?' What nonsense is this.. haihz..

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then another disappointment on mpp issue.. guess i shall keep this to myself la.. dun really wanna talk much about the mpp d.. hav been posting a lot on that d.. and it involves many ppl also.. dun wanna comment so much as i know la.. frenz around me reading this blog later know many things also not good de.. this things r not suppose to go to public..

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And now.. i just came back not long from a so called meeting up to do a piece of work/ paper/ design which took me around 5 hours.. gosh.. i still hav statistic assignment.. and tomolo i need to wake up around 5.30am to go to kudat for a trip.. major subject to do assignment de with coursemates.. guess wat's the time now? it's already 3am.. not enough sleep again.. no good.. anyway.. really need to rest awhile liao la..

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Ohya.. add something.. 1 more thing.. almost knocked down by a car today.. 1st time so teruk in Sabah.. after statistic go home.. sad d ma.. then red light ma.. mai stopped n chatted with frenz (still got another 2 motors there) Then i saw green light.. mai pecut je la kan.. mana tau i din notice got a kancil turning in uni.. wah.. it's like when i noticed it.. i braked.. and my front tyre knocked the car's back tyre a bit.. haha.. that was so close..

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

No Good...

Hmmph.. not really in the mood.. dunno wat or how to post.. haihz.. slept alot these few days.. I also dunno y.. Im suppose to sleep less and get myself prepared for studies and MPP thing and yet.. I sleep and sleep and sleep.. ohya.. beside sleep.. I online onli.. surf surf and all.. I just dun wanna care bout my studies and MPP thing.. getting lazier.. dunno la..

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1st.. today got my thermo marks.. suppose to be a happy thing that I got 40/50.. 1 of the highest in my class liao.. As the others all around 20 plus onli.. even those who usually get very good marks de.. those top in class also around 20 plus.. (got 30 plus also la).. somehow.. i feel guilty.. cuz i alwiz depends on my frenz for my studies de ma.. inside class n all i dun listen to lecturer.. tutorial i dunno how to do.. just copy and all..

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Somehow.. it's just not fair.. the person who help me out in my studies.. get around 29/50.. I also dunno wat to say liao.. he borrowed me notes and things to copy.. and yet.. i got higher.. not saying that im good.. just that.. ppl c me getting high marks.. then will alwiz say like ask nic la.. he so geng n all.. but im just.. haihz.. i dunno anything until the last minute i get into the exam hall.. i dun study until the very last minute.. Im having my statistic test tomolo.. and even now also i din really study much for that.. later gonna work 'tong siu' la.. haihz.. Im afraid that ppl say me 'zha sho ban mung'.. dun wanna teach them and all.. i really dunno a thing de.. Anyway.. im lucky to have this guy to guide me thru my homework and all.. i really depends on him de la.. somehow.. if really fan min and i got into MPP I gonna be dead.. haha.. shuan le ba..

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Went to pesta tanglung just now.. was so-so la.. got la a bit comment on it.. but nvm la.. nothing is perfect.. nothing major bad things happen la.. no back up plan onli la.. but.. biasa la.. not many program got back up de la.. lucky also la.. rain awhile onli.. but teruk.. rain awhile stop then rain again like tat.. just bad luck la i guess.. anyway.. met many ppl there.. nothing much to comment on that la.. ok la.. met YB Melanie also.. asked me y im not in their uniform.. i also like '''-_-

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Next.. this mpp issue again.. im down.. really down.. suddenly a surprise came in.. one my closest fren fighting for this mpp thingi have just decided to pull out liao.. really a bit sad bout that.. but apa boleh buat.. haha.. i gotta accept it la.. din really question much bout it also.. but i really tot at least got some1 close inside still ok la.. somehow.. now is like.. really gonna work out something la.. (Anyway.. no matter what decision u make.. haha.. i will still support u de.. As that's wat a fren do.. If u need advice then u can alwiz come n find me.. I dun promise that I can give the best choice.. But at least I can b a listener and give pros and cons on a matter.. whether It's right or wrong is depends on oneself de.. As i alwiz believe that nothing is the best.. As long as u yourself believe that it's the best! When u have no doubt on ur believes..)

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Know wat.. in the 1st place.. I am a bit excited bout joining this thing.. but as time goes by.. my mood changed.. cuz it's really like no news bout it.. i need something to push me to do stuffs de at times.. but now is like.. some more with a group of ppl make me more dependent on ppl.. ohya.. 1 thing.. when i start to depend on ppl.. i will alwiz tend to rely on ppl and dun care bout some stuff.. cuz i will start to think that that's no longer my job..

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It's hard to get to know someone new for me.. not hard la.. but it's really jodoh and all la.. it depends on my mood whether it's time to meet someone new anot de.. haha.. another weirdo here (refering to myself =p) I can get to know someone easily.. but at times.. i just wanna keep the frenz i have now.. dunno la.. dunno how to explain or i dunno what myself thinking also.. haihz.. dun care la.. just 'kin bou hang bou' la..

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Sometimes I wish I could be someone ignorant..

As my fren mentioned.. ignorant = bliss

However.. Haha.. too bad.. Im just not tat type..

I really act as I dun care.. (although sometimes I really do) =p

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

I Can See It Coming...Very Soon...

So.. The election is coming very soon.. and i feel that im not really well-prepared for it.. somehow.. im working this in a group.. which i would say as a team (just only realised it today).. I really tot of doing it solo.. do my campaign with my so called wakil calon (my frenz actually).. I din really go approach many of them.. just a few who is close.. Em.. after all.. mayb i just dun wanna b too fake.. im not really some1 who is very frenly after all.. dun wanna get close to ppl just bcuz of election.. then after election gonna be not close again.. no point la for me.. just find those who can help out.. a small group is more than enough actually.. i really tot of doing it alone (without other calon as a team.. cuz there is no news from other ppl..) I memang the type of person who dun like to depend on ppl if I can do it myself..

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And.. I can feel it getting very near.. no news from them.. so.. i memang got la a rough plan how m i suppose to run my stuffs.. somehow.. i have to learn how to work in a group also.. cuz we had a meeting among ourselves and decided to do it together.. somehow.. i just dun think that we have the click yet.. so many of us.. dun really know each other well.. then now.. have to get close and fight together for the seats.. em.. dunno la.. mayb i memang the type of ppl who not good in working in a group.. or mayb i have a feeling that.. many of the calon just dun care and wait for the news.. wait for someone to guide..

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For me.. i dun think that's the way lo.. i alwiz think that we shud b independent.. we shud learn to think and plan what to do n all.. mayb we can ask for guidance but not spoon feed lo.. after all.. my plan tak jadi sudah.. i still have to work in a group.. my plan of doing banner this saturday alone dah jadi buat dengan all the rest of the ppl.. haha.. ok.. i know i know.. mayb im a selfish person.. but somehow.. this type of basic things we shud know lo.. pandai2 ma.. can feel it coming we shud alwiz get ready ourself and cannot really wait for others or seniors to tell us wat to do de.. how r we gonna learn in such a way?

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Anyway.. good also la got the meeting today.. let me know more about the preparation and wat m i suppose to do next.. but somehow.. im a bit confuse and all.. cuz now.. we're working in a group.. a group of ppl who i dun really know them well.. and we hav devided our jobs about wat to do.. haihz.. i memang the type of person who dun really trust the ability of a person until i see it.. so.. im a bit worry.. cuz i dun handle the thing myself and that i hav to count on other ppl to get the stuff i need.. a bit hard huh.. guess.. i have to start learning and accept this type of things.. just cross my fingers.. and hope for the best..

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It's important to be prepared,

It's important to plan things in advanced,

So that we can see what's coming,

So that we can have an idea how to overcome..

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Weird...

Today i took my course picture.. Hehe.. very leng zhai oh.. Yan Chin Fei wearing his cot and take picture oh.. seldom u see de leh.. Haha..


Hehe.. looks great rite? Haha.. Anyway.. i really like the 2nd picture.. taken in some angle with face looking from.. =p
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Ok la.. Nothing much la.. No comment today.. (actually i wrote alot.. But dun think it's suitable to post i there.. deleted liao lo.. it's about insensitivity - ones shud alwiz be sensitive bout the surrounding.. it's good tat if he knows what's ppl around thinking and the next thing ppl gonna do - this is what i call 'sing mok' when u can read ppl's mind and know what they gonna do next..) It's important to be 'sing mok' in this society.. Im not sure whether this thing can be trained or not.. I just think that this is necessary..
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Carez
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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

No good....

Know wat!? Yan Chin Fei dun understand what he studied.. I really dun understand a thing.. haihz.. Y did i choose to have this type of calculation? Y I choose to take physics rather than bio? at least bio we can just memorize.. this physics really driving me crazy.. I cannot just memorize.. cuz memorize also no use.. haihz.. sad la..
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Once I have said.. Study onli ma.. I read then know lo.. dun read mai dunno lo.. no matter what course I take also no problem de la.. That was what i told my mom.. And yet.. now.. Im dying here.. struggling.. to learn the things that my lecturer hav taught in the class.. I really feel like giving up.. I am tired.. really tired..
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Once I tot I am so great that I could alwiz depends on myself to study.. I could alwiz depends on the source and textbook to study and go for exam.. But Im so wrong.. Things are different.. This is no longer like PMR.. SPM.. not even STPM.. But this is uni.. sometimes.. it's just hard to work alone.. Im starting to give up.. and Im really giving in.. a bit down.. haihz..
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Nvm nvm.. let me san ha awhile here.. I know i gonna struggle later also.. just do what i can la i suppose.. anyway.. here.. i would like to apologise + thank the 1 who have help me throughout this period when im in need in my studies.. apologise for copying most of the times.. and thanks for borrowing them to me.. especially my kind coursemate - Mr. Teoh.. appreciates that alot.. and i really dunno how to balas balik.. haihz.. most of the time i really cannot adapt to uni life.. cuz im those fella who dun do homework.. since primary 1.. and u're telling me to do assignments and those tutorial.. gosh.. that's really like killing me..
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Anyway.. guess.. i really need to manage my time properly and all.. dunno la.. see la what i can do bout it.. really have to plan nicely.. dah la end of the sem d.. buku pun tak baca banyak.. election dah nak datang.. final pun akan sampai tak lama lagi.. ish ish ish.. cross my finger je la..
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Never give up before you even try,
Nothing is realy over until you stop trying,
Never say it's impossible before u pursue the way u think it's possible,
Never make urself feel less worthy by comparing urself with others,
Never allow obstacles to stop you,
Confront and transform them to opportunities,
Believe in working hard towards ur future,
Take a step at a time to reach urz goals,
Alwiz believe in urself,
Your happiness is in ur hands,
For if you keep staying positive,
You can make ur dreams come true!
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I wish i really could.. Anyway.. We shud alwiz be positive!!!
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Carez
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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Relationship..

Nothing much happen today.. Just that tot of going to swim again.. in the morning.. went over to likas stadium.. mana tau budak tu cakap hari isnin memang tidak buka.. aiseh.. then came back.. and study a bit.. sleep a bit and lepak a lot.. that's it la.. nothing special.. Hehe.. so.. I can start my grandmother story again.. muahahaha..

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What's the topic today? Hehe.. Let's choose about relationship.. Aiseh.. Haha.. Hot topic of mine.. I memang like to ceritakan bout my couple life.. But boring sudah kan dengar banyak sudah.. nvm nvm..

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Hmmmph.. Guess wat??? Yan Chin Fei is really missing those time when I have a life partner.. The feeling of love is really very nice.. to be able to love and be loved.. both of the feeling is really like.. WOW.. Haha.. Im not sure bout what u guys think about a relationship.. But personally.. I really enjoy being in a relationship very very much.. It's really nice.. to be able to make someone u love smile, happy and melt =p U know? The self satisfaction is really there..

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It has really been some time since I am single.. Haha.. Not that I wan to be.. Just that maybe 'the one' is not here yet.. Or Im being fussy.. after few relationships.. I roughly know what I wan and all.. And that Im starting to become more choosy.. As I tend to find someone who is better than my former ones.. And sometimes.. that's really hard u know.. Anyway.. I also dunno wat m i suppose to do now.. just wait lo.. wait for someone to give me chance.. or someone who is really gonna be better than my former ones.. Haha.. It's not really that easy leh.. 'shun kei ji yin' la..

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However.. u know la.. Yan Chin Fei ni susah sikit.. Saya sudah a bit bored of single life actually.. haha.. But I think paling cepat to get 1 also after my MPP period gua (If I really dapat la).. Love is really special.. somehow.. I might not truly understand it.. But at least.. I can feel the happiness.. Can feel the feeling of togetherness.. And hopefully my coming relationship gonna be a stable and long lasting 1 la.. Someone who could really make me fall for her..

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Sudah la.. guess that's all la.. just simply wanna drop a few words here onli la.. tak nak panjang2 la.. My frenz out there.. for those who already have ur life partner.. appreciate him/her.. treasurer every moment.. for that's not easy to find someone who suit you.. someone who truly love you.. someone who would sacrifies for you.. someone who would shower u with love.. be there for you and all.. dun ever make the same mistake as I do.. think properly when u make a decision for there's really no turning back.. For those who r still single de.. jia you lo.. wish that u would be able to find ur mr right/mrs right asap la..

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Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
So, love the people who treat you right,
Forget 'bout the ones who don't,
And believe that everything happens for a reason,
If you get a chance, take it,
If it changes your life, let it,
Nobody said that it'd be easy,
They just promised it would be worth it.

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*

Something To Share.. Have I Been Thinking Too Much?

Haha.. How am i suppose to start my blog today? Gosh.. There r just too much think I would like to post today.. I am afraid u guys will find it boring reading this.. dah la everyday blog.. some more so many words pulak tu.. Haha.. Anyway.. I memang like to do this.. This is the place I could really share what i really think and all.. As Im the type of person who like to chat 1 on 1.. Seldom do I chat with more than 3 fellas at a time.. Got la.. But I will just sit there and say nothing de.. Those who really know me.. Memang I only talk much in a small group..
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Ok.. dun waste time la.. Let me start my topic today.. Has been out for almost the whole day.. I just came back not long ago.. And guess wat? now is already 3.50am.. Haha.. I was out in the morning around 9.15am.. Hehe..
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So.. This morning I woke up around 8 something.. Then washed up and woke my fren and went to campus with her.. reached there around 9.30am.. Went to a place with a few frenz.. Then chatted for around 3 hours like that.. Chatted a lot of stuffs.. Hehe.. And from that conversation I've learnt alot.. really alot.. Let me share wat I still remember over here.. I memang like to put many many advice in my blog or in those words that I say de.. So.. Dun mind ya.. Hehe..
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Firstly, talk bout joining MPP.. What is MPP? What r we suppose to do? What r we suppose to know? Hehe.. I just touch a bit over here.. MPP = Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar.. Student Representative (direct translate ni..) There r just too many defination and all.. However the basic things and all r to provide/fight for the basic facilities for the students in the campus (of course those munasabah saje la.. Jangan la mention yang bukan2 tu ya..) MPP is a society that link between students and the uni authorities.. What we tell the uni is what majority of the students in UMS think is right..
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Many ppl think that MPP dun really do their work.. Ok.. This is what's on my mind.. For those who have this type of thinking.. I hope that u can answer this few questions from me..
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1. If u say that MPP dun do their work well, why dun u come out for the election? Is it that u dun have the guts to come out for election?

2. If u say what MPP do is wrong, y dun u come out and fight for a place and alter what it is suppose to be right?

3. If u think being a MPP have so many benefits, y dun u join? Scared that u will b busy huh?

4. If u think MPP is useless, then what is useful? u? The 1 who will comment behind who dun dare to come out and speak in public or skul authorities?
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I am not sure bout others.. But for me.. from what I can c.. Not many ppl who r willing to come out to fight for MPP.. And yet.. There r many ppl who comment and say that MPP is useless.. Haha.. Actually Im one of them who did that b4.. But my frenz.. after all.. I just hope that u guys dun make the same mistake and think like how I sillily used to think.. I stand out.. the main reason is to learn things.. But at the same time I will still try my best to do what I could.. And I bet most of the contestants who fight for MPP think the same way.. I hope that u guys understand the situation.. Mayb some of the contestants u think that they r not good enough or u're better than them.. But at least they have the courage to come out and fight for the students in the university.. U guys shud support.. Maybe the things/decisions are different than urs.. But somehow.. U dun need to condemn.. U can find the MPP out and give suggestions.. It's just hard to define whether something is right or wrong..
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Haha.. Here is another issue.. I've been 1 of them who think the same way as this.. But somehow.. I've realized it early and would like to share with u guys.. Whether Im right or wrong is another thing.. Just hope that u guys can 'tafsir' urself what Im saying is right or wrong.. Many say that 'I dun wanna join politics, it's just something very 'dark' and complex. I would like to have a simple life in university'. Hehe.. Do u really think it that way? I used to think like that..

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Politic.. It is just a matter of time till we learn it.. When election comes.. ppl alwiz ask.. 'Did u go for voting?'.. What say u? Yes, I did.. But I just dun understand wat's barisan and DAP and stuffs.. I just cross because that's my own race.. Haha.. biasa la tu kan.. U try to ask ur parents.. I bet they know at least a little bit of politics thingi.. again.. It's just a matter of time.. Y not we learn it earlier in university? We can alwiz equip ourselves with more knowledge.. And we have a choice whether we wanna use it or not.. rather than being a naive or ignorant person.. (mayb some1 thinks that they wanna live a simple life and they dun care bout it.. BUT keep in mind that this is ur country.. U have to know at least something bout it.. Especially.. u r a university students.. keep in mind!!! u gonna graduate in few years time.. spend some time to know bout ur country.. (I know Im no1 to say this.. just some advice k? whether u wanna listen anot is a different think.. i just bring up the issue.. and keep u guys aware out there.. I m not good in that as well.. but im trying to learn more now.. So.. i hope that u guys would do the same thing too)

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Ok.. Next thing.. Let me jump to another topic awhile.. I believe that everything starts with the word 'BASIC'. It's very important to know the basic of something.. Let me give a few examples.. 1. Like me.. Im not good in writing essay like how Im doing it now.. As my points jump here and there.. cuz i dun really have a strong basic in writing essay (din really study well in class.. Haha)

2. Handling a meeting.. We need to have the basic.. in secondary is the simple basic I would say.. University is the basic.. and how we handle meeting when we come out to this society is advanced or complex type of meeting..

3. Politics.. We have to know the basic thing in our country in order to chat with ppl sometimes.. Many ppl in the society who will touch that topic.. If we dun equip ourselves with it.. Then there will b a gap in the future when u come out to the society..

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My frenz.. What I wanna say here is that.. We have to learn.. There r just too many things that we can expose ourselves to in university.. When u wanna start learning? When u come out to the society? Isnt that a little bit too late? Give urself a chance.. Especially those book worms.. Getting good results is important.. But what society wan is not only smart ppl with 4.0 pointer.. What the society wan is some1 who know how to communicate.. some1 who know how to handle things.. some1 who have experience not onli in studies.. we have to prepare ourselves for future..

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There r just too many times that I've said that I will stop joining activities.. bcuz i dun wanna b so fan and all.. But somehow.. there's just a feeling in me.. pushing me.. that i cannot stop learning things.. I cannot just study and get good results.. I have to see more.. know more.. Do u know what's the advantage learning things in university than when u come out to the society? The best thing is that.. When u do something wrong in university.. there's alwiz another chance.. there's alwiz some1 who will be there to guide u thru.. who will correct ur mistake.. But that doesnt really gonna be the same when u come out.. there's onli 1 chance.. and dun u ever dare to do something wrong.. as the akibat gonna be 10 times or even 100 times worst than in university.. So.. I urge my frenz out there to spend some time joining activities.. learn more.. and listen more to ppl who have experience..

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Ok.. OMG.. this is just too long for me.. and this is just half way.. I still have a lot to talk leh.. and it's gonna be 5am now.. hahaha.. Anyway.. I syok typing here d.. ok.. one of my lecturer asked me the other day.. 'U guys (male students) hor.. I just dun understand where ur knowledge come from.. Many of my male students dun really read books (as in those what so ever book in popular bookstore or sth) They just know how to play games and all.. When there's no input.. mana u dapat have the ideas to output and make decision? Haha.. know what i answered? 'Play game good wat.. there r just too many types of games.. some of them really test our IQ very much and we have to think alot u know to play those games =p..) Anyway.. for now.. my type of learning way is to listen more to experienced fellas.. then see more things.. let myself expose more to the surroundings.. And think more.. Hehe.. that's y i like to day dream.. i will never listen to the lecturer in front.. my mind will somehow fly to somewhere and start thinking =p..

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Guess that's it for my a little bit of advice and all.. Haha.. If there's something that tak ngam to listen then dun hesitate to tell me ya.. I alwiz welcome ppl's comment de.. haha.. as im in the process of learning and i have to know whether what I think is right or wrong.. is it that majority of the ppl agree with me or not =)

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Ok.. move on.. Then around 1pm today.. came back home and took lunch with room mate.. he cook today.. then i just eat la.. sedap tu.. vege and egg again la.. apa boleh buat.. haha.. then slept at 2pm to 5 something.. Then woke up.. took bathe and 6.20pm like that went out to fohsang district (somewhere around luyang) Cuz they have the pesta tanglung over there organised by the YB from that district, YB Melanie.. (She is really really a very very very good fella.. She helped me alot when I was doing my Pesta Ang Pow.. with her advice and all..) I dunno whether I am not aware of whether we have it in KL this type of even or whether they memang never really do this type of things de.. Anyway.. actually it depends on the district or the YB approach how he/she wanna handle his/her district.. YB Melanie alwiz handle it with having roadshow.. and that really attracts alot of ppl lo.. A good idea.. She knows alot of ppl de oh.. So.. went there with 3 frenz.. Then watched the show till around 10 something 11..

Hehe.. And wat we have here? very crowded place huh? They have many things there.. dances.. magic show by a small kid (that kid really very very geng de la) Singing.. Got astro talent quest de singer.. dunno what year winner de.. etc.. and the best thing is the lion dance.. really very very geng lo.. know wat? those ppl who do lion dance here mostly are kids u know? those alot younger than me.. than they r just great! many secondary skul also got do lion dance de.. very geng de.. and guess wat? many of them are non-chinese.. bet u wun b able to c it in other place especially KL I think..

And guess wat??? Haha.. YB Melanie sure can recognise me.. as I memang contacted her alot last time.. and the best thing is that.. Datuk Yong Teck Lee.. (former 1st Sabah Chief Minister aka current president of Sabah Progressive Party, BN) still can recognise me wei.. dun play play k.. Then finished that show d.. Mai tot wanna send regards and say bye to YB Melanie de.. Mana tau.. Datuk Yong tell us to yum cha together.. Gosh.. I stunned for a second.. Then answered.. ok..... And.. In the end.. We sat there.. With a bunch of ppl.. (different tables..) with a few YBs and those party punya ppl lo.. YB Melanie sat with us.. So.. Chatted alot of stuffs.. till 12 something.. then came back.. went to find my coursemates.. then yum cha.. till 3.30am like that lo.. then came home..

Yes.. It's me and YB Melanie.. Wah.. This is the very 1st time i take picture with her after knowing her for around almost 1 year.. a nice picture huh? yeah!!!

Ok.. guess that's all for this time la.. Really tired liao la.. it's already 6am.. ish ish ish.. habis la.. langit pun sudah mula cerah.. 1 hour earlier than KL ma..

Carez

*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*