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Hmmph.. nothing much.. just feel like writing something here.. today celebrated grandma's birthday (dad's side).. 81 years old liao.. Haha.. not really close to her la.. but this type of things alwiz make me feel a little bit of touching.. she is a lucky granny.. so many ppl celebrate with her.. she has 4 sons and 2 daughters.. my dad is the 4th son.. so.. 4 of the sons were here.. with almost all her grandchildren.. except those not in kl (like my sis) and got 1 of her daughter + 1 more daughter (grandfather got 2 wives =p) she even have great grandchildren liao.. lucky grandma.. still hav so many ppl celebrating with her.. =)

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know wat? these 2 days i've seen something.. omg.. it's really bad.. i've noticed a gal.. im not sure whether she was pampered or wat.. but somehow i feel that the attitude really got a little bit of prob.. i admit.. i might be like that the last time.. but luckily.. i've changed n now that when i look at ppl.. im relieved that im not like that.. this gal.. around the same age as me.. alwiz scold her bf for nothing.. omg.. i damn sad wei seeing her bf.. he is quite nice la actually.. talked to him around 5 mins.. (but im not really sure la.. just simple talk.. n dunno how their relationship works.. cant really comment much.. but i just think that a relationship shudnt be like that.. but not sure.. mayb some ppl prefer it to be like that =p)

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She scolded her bf for being late.. she scolds him for this and for that.. it's like everytime meet up.. the bf also kena scold de.. i bet the guy will counter 1 day.. that's just not the way man.. omg.. sad la.. she expects the bf to come fetch her whenever she calls or mayb gives a few hours earlier notice.. but somehow.. u have to fetch her.. omg.. isnt that being not understanding?? kesian man.. i told my mom.. if u have such a 'sam pou'.. sure gonna suicide.. lolz..

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then i've noticed this same gal again.. haha.. she can comment on many stuffs.. and will say that she hates this and that.. then start kutuk-ing ppl.. not those jokingly.. it's very serious type of kutuk.. for example.. got 2 old couple.. alwiz take the mic and choose songs to sing.. like karaoke la.. then she kutuk alwiz also the 2.. cuz they sing all the old old songs.. then when got her mother go sing.. she says her mother dunno how to sing la.. then those who r there have to suffer cuz the voice not nice n stuffs.. we have to bear it.. omg.. sigh.. just told her.. ppl happy mai enough lo.. dun la so bad.. think until ppl like tat.. together so many ppl.. happy mai good lo.. just give applause to support la.. at least came up to sing ma.. haihz.. dunno la.. i swear i wun find a gal like that to become my gf..

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Carez

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tiring..

OMG.. Im damn tired man.. dush.. eyes also heavy.. but dun feel like sleeping yet.. worked for 2 days.. then it's like morning go out.. came back.. and go out again.. so it's like.. exhauted man.. but takpe la.. wat to do rite? hopefully get to go out with frenz next week.. just noticed that im gonna leave very soon and i really have to plan my holiday well.. really well.. or else.. there will b quite a lot of ppl that i dun get to meet actually..

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nothing much here.. just that.. tomolo i need to work again.. then hopefully not next week.. or else im really a bit short of time liao.. anyway.. i'll be coming back awhile in dec.. really awhile.. got a camp in genting from 7th dec to 9th.. gonna be here on 6th.. hopefully going back a bit late.. still not confirm yet.. c how la.. will post it here =)

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So.. hehe.. let me crap a bit again.. relationship again.. have been thinking much la.. not recently.. it's all this while.. after hearing much.. thinking much.. and stuffs.. finally.. i get to come out a conclusion.. my very own conclusion.. theoritically.. no one is gonna get the best bf/gf.. it all depends on oneself..

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One just have to be contented.. i really mean contented.. we choose ourself.. who gonna be our bf/gf.. and after all.. we really have to try the best to keep them! setting a mindset that he/she is really the best.. cuz.. try to think bout it.. there r so many ppl around.. im just 21 years old.. i bet i still gonna meet so so many ppl in the future.. and if i were really to get a gf now.. i can bet that at least 80% i can meet some1 better in the future.. whether we compare on look, figure, attitude or anything la.. i bet there will sure be some1..

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However.. here.. in my opinion.. the most important thing is that.. we have to know wat we want.. and when we really found some1 who is suitable.. and that's it.. keep it! cuz no1 is perfect.. we might think that meeting some1 better in the future.. but have u ever tot of how many some1 u will meet in the future? how many ppl u have the chance to change n change.. somehow.. someday.. u'll find that u have already missed 'The Best' and sometimes.. there's really no turning back.. So.. we have to know wat's the best for us.. when we get it.. just try our very best to keep it..

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I read somewhere bout the paddy field in frenster.. the 'love and marriage'.. Interesting story.. i just write the summary out.. It says that some1 is given a task to pick the biggest paddy in the paddy field.. but he only can go forward and cannot reverse.. so.. as he go n go.. he found the paddy got bigger.. so he keep on walking cuz he tot that there will alwiz b a bigger 1 in front.. but somehow.. he have missed the biggest 1.. and ended up not getting the biggest paddy.. and that's love..

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when he is given the another chance to find the biggest corn in the field with the same rule.. no reverse.. this time.. he carefully walked and pick the 1 that he think it's big enough.. and that's wat he get till the end.. this is marriage.. =) interesting huh?

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Haha.. at least i learn something from here =) hey hey.. nothing much la.. just hav something to write over here to share with u guys.. i've missed once.. and now.. guess im looking forward.. ya.. it's time to move on.. wait patiently and look for another who i call 'the best'.. =) someday.. i know.. she will appear.. wish me luck! Blessings to all my fellow frenz.. for those who already have.. appreciates him/her.. for those who still finding.. dun worry.. someday.. 'the one' will come and u'll find love.. =)

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Carez

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Im back!

So.. Finally im back to kl! haha.. but guess wat.. u wun believe it! i've stayed at home since i came back on sunday.. went out once.. to cut hair.. then came back.. never really go out of house.. haha.. strange huh? wat's happening to me? omg..

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Anyway.. spent few days here.. watching movies.. sleeping.. and reading a book.. haha.. dunno how far i could read.. guess wun really go until have way the book.. as usual.. hmmph.. ohya.. tomolo i gonna start working for my mom.. not sure gonna be how long.. due to some reasons.. so.. have to help out in this short holiday.. anyway.. everyone knows that i dun really like it.. but nvm.. haha.. wun really blame it la.. still gonna enjoy my holiday!!! yeah!

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hmmph.. would like to bring up a topic.. an arguable 1 i think.. i have heard.. and i have also seen this happen.. so.. im just wondering.. is there right or wrong.. a guy, A who is in love with a gal, X.. and somehow.. the gal is tackled by the good fren of the guy,B who knows that his fren is in love with the gal.. So.. in this case.. is there any fault play by B?

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Im really not sure bout this.. mayb at times we really have to see the situation i guess.. cuz.. love comes and goes.. and we dunno when it gonna come.. and when it comes.. whether we realise it anot.. we're already in love.. and it's really hard to resist at times.. mayb if we talk bout ethics.. it's really wrong to tackle the gal that ur best fren is in love.. but somehow.. B is already in love with X.. and in this case.. probably X already rejected A.. So.. A suppose to hate B for tackling X?

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Personally.. i think sure got a little bit em song.. but somehow.. when we really think bout it.. as a fren.. as long as they r happy then shud b alright.. although i understand that it really gonna hurt alot.. but.. they r in love.. something that comes naturally (we assume that B and X is real k? dun tell me B just playing around with the gal).. shud they resist the feeling cuz of A? 2ndly.. Mayb we can think that God is just testing us or something.. or A and X just dun hav the faith.. Anyway.. just think that there's really no right or wrong.. we shudnt really hate a good fren for that.. i bet B and X will feel guilty also.. I bet they have struggled not to let A knows bout it also.. and finally.. it's suffering also rite? dunno la.. any comment?

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Carez

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Finally.. Finish exam liao..

Hehe.. guess it has really been some time since i last update my blog.. Im here blogging again.. yay!!! Anyway.. it's 5.20am now.. And Im still here.. awake.. blogging.. few reasons i stayed up so late.. a guess in my room.. mayb wait till 6.30am to morning call someone.. after exam.. just finished cleaning up my room.. hehe.. and a game of dota (need to start training liao.. wat to do.. go back kl have to play with my dota gang rite? later i become so noob.. no good la =p)

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So.. How have i been? em.. so-so.. not really too good after all.. some of the subjects i did badly.. Anyway.. hopefully my pointer will be better than last sem.. and 3.0 and above of course.. =p not that hard actually this sem.. just that i really dun have the mood to study.. dunno y.. once my good memory already long lost.. couldnt really memorize even those formulas.. omg.. or mayb i really study last minute i guess.. haha.. 1 day b4 exam onli i really start studying.. b4 that i will sleep a day at least 10 hours and so.. hahaha.. really enjoying my study break huh? not good...

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Anyway.. past d.. dun really wanna talk bout it.. so.. I'll be coming back this sunday.. 12.30pm flight.. yay! gonna reach kl around 3pm.. hehe.. guess i gonna take a rest and something then onli start planning out my holiday.. still not sure when i gonna come back sabah actually.. hmmph.. still got something not sure over here.. cant really change my ticket yet.. sigh.. mom pulak like not that happy.. cuz need to change flight again.. sob sob.. cost me RM600++ to and fro this time after changing.. no good.. bad decision to go back.. shud have bought for CNY onli.. anyway.. it's ok.. =) cheers..

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Then.. let me bring up a topic here.. Hmmph.. how would i start.. haha..

Guess wat? i bet u guys heard b4 of even u did say b4 a phrase that goes "I am not becoming myself" or "Im changing to somebody else".. And then.. He will start telling himself or others that it shudnt be like that and so.. cuz he is no longer who he was..

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And now.. The very big question mark here.. personally.. (just tot bout it the other day) We are constantly changing.. Is changing to someone else is something bad? I dun think so.. it all depends.. in my opinion.. someone shud alwiz change for the better.. yes.. they shud.. not just bcuz they wanna be so called "himself" and start telling ppl and himself that he is no longer who he was.. Agree huh? Just a very simple example.. one who alwiz steal ppl's stuffs has his own personality.. can he actually says that he wanna keep his personality just bcuz that's who he is? no rite.. huh.. then.. hav u ever think of it when u alwiz say that "Im no longer who i was".. "Im not this kind of ppl".. frankly.. im one of them who alwiz say this.. but somehow.. after i tot of it.. hehe.. something goes wrong.. but at times.. it's really hard to change.. nvm.. just write it here to share with u guys.. mayb sometimes u can really think of it when u say that phrase whether it really affects ur decision anot =)

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Wong Theen Yoong

I have know this guy for many years liao.. i think when i was form 2 if im not mistaken.. then we had a small fight (I still rmb at the field) and it took us around 1 year like that to talk to each other again.. sigh.. apa lah.. just like a kid onli.. lolz.. back then wat.. i was a kid.. anyway.. after all.. same class since F3 till upper 6.. wow.. wat a long period huh? anyway.. i really appreciate this frenship between us.. and i know u do =) (hey hey.. not being gay.. just that.. buddy wat..) A guy who i can share everything with.. spent alot of good memories together.. drawing banner all night long in VI back then.. playing ping pong midnight in his house.. not onli him.. his brothers and also dad.. i really mean his dad.. wow.. haha.. then go out together.. double date alwiz.. haha.. really lots of stuffs.. and guess wat.. really need to thank u for alwiz being there to listen and giving advice.. haha.. frankly.. i think that u really very mature with all ur thinking and stuffs.. really a great guy.. a bit admire him in the way he do every stuffs.. really very into it.. the determination.. wow.. 1 word.. impressive.. A person who i can talk all night long till morning to share our stuffs.. and guess wat.. haha.. i think is one of the onli guy that i have really share my stuffs and cried out (i think a few times liao lo.. 2 or 3 times la) haha.. thanks man.. even the mother also treats me very good.. im thankful to have such a fren.. haha.. his mom even gave me a necklace bullet-liked with those god prayer or something.. haha.. just feel like own mom =) and I think really touched me..

"once Im very happy.. that u have urs.. and I have mine.. for i think both of us have the perfect pair for each other.. seriously.."

Haha.. really thank alot.. and i wun miss to find u when im back in kl de.. carez..

Frenz Forever

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Carez

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A Tribute to Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong....

Gosh.. I cant imagine that im doing this just 1 day before my final.. Anyway.. this thing really have been bothering me.. haha.. Im quite excited to pen down a little bout The Story of Uncle Lim.. Really a great guy.. I din know all this stuffs till he dies *Sorry Uncle Lim* Anyway.. This man is really someone who we shud look up to.. a great exemplary of Uncle Lim's Achievement!!!

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All this while.. I havent really been so excited bout current issue till this news came up.. i've been looking thru the news about the progress and all.. and most importantly bout his history.. omg.. u guys shud really check out *planning to buy his 'My Story' book.. Im really so into and admirer about Uncle Lim who could really see the future.. who could build Genting.. such a great place.. all by himself.. He developed Genting Highlands single-handedly.
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And actually b4 that with the year of 19th of his life.. from China’s Fujian Province.. came over to malaya.. with just $2 if im not mistaken.. then worked in many fields.. with his uncle.. then construction.. and he found his on way on iron mining and earned him millions thruout a year.. when ppl said that he is crazy with that idea in the 1st place.. when he saw Cameron Highland and start thinking bout this genting 'crazy plan'.. omg.. and he really did it in a place.. Gunung Ulu Kali.. was later built into the Genting Highlangs we have now.. Anyway.. Is really a great guy.. a person who is not really good in his BM and English but is respected by many.. *Really funny about a news bout him speaking BM to our current PM about the tax 1*
*I will surely pay a visit to Genting if i were to be in KL.. Can go see see GohTong Villa..




The founder and honorary life president of Genting Group

Genting Highlands

"Former MCA president Tan Koon Swan worked for Lim during the 1970s, some of which he fondly recalled as “quite hilarious.”
Tan who was hired as a general manager found Lim to be everything he was said to be – farsighted, energetic and capable.
“He was also a keen learner who wanted to know everything in depth and detail whether it was law, architecture or engineering. He would tell the professionals what he wanted and the way he wanted it.”
When the architect designing the first hotel in Genting returned to the site after a long holiday, he ex-claimed: “My God! I cannot recognise my baby anymore!"

"Lim spoke mainly Chinese dialects and Mandarin and a passable Malay and English. Up to his nineties, close aides still remember him using language tapes to brush up on his English.
But it obviously did not hinder his relations with the powerful and famous for Ong recalled Lim saying to Abdullah in colloquial Malay: “PM mau tolong sama gua, kita orang kerja kuat, kerja manyak susah, bukan senang untung manyak, tolong kurang cukai” (PM you have to help us, we work hard, it’s tough work, not easy to make money, please lower taxes). "

-From 24th Oct - The Star Online

*May Uncle Lim rest in peace*

Carez

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Next up.. Bro and Sis

Ok.. before i eleborate much on my bro n sis.. hehe.. would like to update u guys a bit.. so.. nothing much has happened.. went to see YB Melanie on 19th.. never tot that gonna meet her for so long.. chatted around 3 hours in her office.. not bad.. interesting.. enjoyed the time spent there.. know more bout the society.. country.. and listened to more views.. haha.. and know wat? again.. i was on newspaper.. asia times.. 21st Oct.. Hehe.. just 1 year plus in sabah.. haha.. already around 3 to 4 times on newspaper.. haha.. compare to kl.. hmmph.. got la.. 3 times also =p not bad huh.. haha..

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Then.. hmmph.. got sms-ed.. 22nd midnight.. 2.21am..

"Sila dtg ke pjumpaan khas bsama tnc hep jam 11am, Isnin 22hb Okt....."

What the.... Haihz.. i dunno whose fault is it to call for meeting at the wee hour.. and the meeting is just few hours away.. i really hate this type of last minute information.. sigh.. but wat to do.. have to go also la.. but nothing much bout the meeting after all.. just a little bit of briefing for the upcoming convocation for sultan kelantan on 25th Oct.. Im wondering.. Is those sultan so free to come over to UMS to study for their PhD.. Dapat graduate pulak tu.. really geng.. So.. we gonna have a huge bazaar "Kelantan Fest, Kelantan Best" with many types of Kelantan food.. Yay!!! Fellow UMS-ians.. Come over to have ur lunch ya.. 1pm.. Free de.. no worry =)

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Brother

So.. would like to talk bout brother 1st.. Hmmph.. Know wat? actually.. i really a bit envy.. If really wanna compare both of us.. Haha.. Still too far for me.. no matter in looks.. knowledge.. and stuffs.. Haha.. all those aunties also alwiz praise u look so handsome and all.. haha.. where else.. i just there.. haha.. cant really say much.. but nowadays still feeling a bit better la.. haha.. at least there r ppl who praise me also =p although im not really as good as u.. i admit that.. knowledge wise.. u're great.. with high IQ and stuffs.. mature thinking.. somehow.. hmmph.. i tot im the 1 who is very playful since young.. who would play PS or computer games till morning without sleeping and all.. but after all.. now is ur turn pulak yang alwiz play games.. it shudnt be like that oh.. u shud concentrate more on ur work!!! mom alwiz also complain.. especially when u're supposed to help mom out in the office.. haihz.. haha.. she alwiz also say u do things very slow n stuffs.. u shud really buck up urself on this lo.. very 'lau hei' la.. moreover.. actually i've alwiz say that.. taking over our parents business is not really hard.. i estimated around 1 year or plus a bit shud n more than enough to take over the whole thing.. but.. u have been working so long there.. 2 years i think got la.. but.. sigh.. nothing much.. still need dad n mom to worry so many stuffs.. dunno whether is their fault who dunno how to pass down the stuffs for u or u dunno how to take the initiative to take over.. anyway.. now that u're in nikon company liao.. a company that u like.. hopefully u will perform well there n get the chance to go japan to further ur career ya.. all the best!!! btw.. i memang nv plan to take over parents business if possible.. i gonna study here for civil and i really hope to enroll in the thing that i study in uni.. next.. at times i really wonder.. 26 years old liao.. whether u really got couple yet anot.. haha.. ur look so good.. although now ur shape a bit out liao =p hehe.. still handsome de.. all these years.. u just stick to 1 gal.. im not sure whether still anot.. not sure whether worth it anot.. not sure whether a good thing or bad.. but it all depends on urself.. u know it best.. just take care there ya.. and buck up urself la!!! "1 more thing.. this is just personal opinion.. for me la.. doesnt matter la.. brother, sister or parents.. I wonder whether they have the responsibility to support the younger to further their studies anot? whether elder siblings support or parents..."

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Sister

Ok..Hmmph.. Now in UK.. and i hope that u will alwiz be great there.. although i know the life over there is not really as good as we think.. anyway.. it's really great that u went over for so long.. to have the chance to travel.. to be able to have a wider look in this world.. not onli stuck in malaysia.. working oversea.. bet it gonna be a great experience.. If compare u n brother.. is really a different person.. u act very fast.. among us.. u're the one with the best laugh.. u've done many things that ppl dun.. u've been very daring.. i bet the angle of u looking at things is different than many ppl.. u've experienced those illegal stuffs.. haha.. those 'dark' things.. and with all that experiences.. i bet u're sure with wat u're doing now.. as u've 'zhong ban' so many times liao.. after all.. u've turned to b a very hardworking person.. work hard.. and start ur dream.. to travel and all.. Im not sure when u gonna come back.. not sure whether u gonna come back to help mom out anot.. know that u're trying hard to apply the visa over there.. hope that u gonna get it in no time.. take care there.. bet mom gonna be worry bout u.. and will be happy if ever u come back to take over the business.. as i think u really have the capability.. although u din really pursue much in ur studies.. but with those experiences that u've gained in these years.. i bet u gonna be a good businesswoman.. haha.. it has been quite some time since the last time i saw u.. 1 year plus liao lo.. hope to c u soon then.. take care over there la..

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Carez

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Hmmph.. Nothing much happen recently.. but just some thought of mine..

Woke up quite early morning today.. Around 8am.. Went down.. have a cup of milo.. with biscuits.. listen songs with my hp.. The atmosphere is just nice.. It was quiet.. and really have the feeling of day dreaming.. dreamt for almost an hour.. suddenly housemate woke up liao.. that was when i stopped and continue sleeping.. till noon.. =p

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Anyway.. day dreamt alot.. And i really like it.. Dreamt bout her.. Wonder bout my single life.. and i think bout so many stuffs.. and would like to share a little of course.. I even tot of making a list out.. but that gonna take a long time.. so.. nvm.. next time mayb.. a list of ppl that i appreciate.. who have big impact in my life.. i would really like to list them out.. at least i have a chance to thank them and all (if there's really (touchwood) something bad happen to me..)

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I have alwiz like to live in my history.. i really like my past.. mayb cuz each time i think bout it.. i would onli think bout those sweet moments that i have had in the past.. that's y i like it very much..

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There r just too many ppl i would like to list them out.. anyway.. let me just list a few of them 1st.. (1 more thing - the position doesnt matter much k - a little mayb) I apologise if u dun like me to put ur name here.. but just wanna tell u that that is where u r..

-Tan Yoke Teng

-My Family

-Wong Theen Yoong

-Kevin Yee Peng Kee

-Lisa Khoo Suan Kim

-Chua Ang Tze & Leong Ai Leng

-Scout frenz

-Dota gang (Ken.. Jia Hun.. etc)

-Few of my F6's classmates (Yuan Lih.. etc)

-The SAB-ians + susu + Jin Kiat

-My coursemates especially the 2

-Sakai gang?

*Sorry if i really leave out a few of u..

*This list is just for this moment.. there will be changes as time goes by..

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I really appreciate all the moment that we have spent together.. There r sweet and memorable..
*Dun be sad bcuz it's over, be happy bcuz it happened*

Really a good phrase.. and I have alwiz hold onto this phrase..

Next time i gonna eleborate on each of the 1 i list there.. really wanna thank 1 by 1..

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Tan Yoke Teng

Haha.. never really tot that after almost 2 years of breaking up.. u can now be on the top of my list.. anyway.. mayb i've grown more mature and start thinking back bout the past.. and realised tat.. u're really a very very good gal.. (I know i know.. there r still alot out there.. and i may find some1 better.. but this is for now) We have spent 1 year plus together.. ppl might say that it's onli 1 year.. and that's not long.. but for me.. spending 1 year plus together.. meeting each other in skul everyday.. and even weekends at times.. spending almost everyday after skul for lunch and all.. it makes me feel like being together for years.. and i've already adapted to the lifestyle.. speaking cantonese and expressing myself in english.. the way we communicate with each other.. the way u blended into my family.. The way u made my family closer.. blah blah blah.. all in all.. u're just great.. letting u go was one of the worst thing that i've done.. Anyway.. i've understood that that was the past.. and that i also accepted it.. just that at times.. those memories will flashback.. Things had happened.. and if i were to ask u to accept me back.. haha things wun b the same.. i bet we will probably be kekok and stuffs.. and i dun really put much hope here also.. just wanna tell u that.. i really appreciates all the moment we spent together.. all the ups and downs that we have been thru.. anyway.. i will still be there as always.. and i hope to have some news from u also.. mayb some major change in ur life.. (going thru surgery and stuffs.. i understand that u wun have the time n all to report to few person.. but i hope to know if there's really any special things happen to u.. whether they r good or bad) I will alwiz pray for u.. god bless..

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My Family

This is the hard thing.. how would i say.. Hmmph.. Guess im mature enough to comment.. Im already 21.. Dad and Mum.. I might not b a good son.. And I cannot really blame u guys also.. Cuz i know u guys work real hard for us.. But.. Im not sure whether u guys realise it anot.. I dunno what it means by love.. and im searching hard for it when i was young.. Frankly.. i have not really feel any love from u guys.. (by actions, by words nor heart..) All that i know.. was that.. u guys work real hard.. but din really spend much time on me.. and that's y i have alwiz put priority on my frenz.. cuz home is not the place that i could really find the word love.. But as i grow up.. ok.. i can feel a little.. but not by actions n stuffs.. is just the feeling.. cuz u guys still the 1 who brought me up.. parents.. i know i know.. there r so many phrase.. *which parents dun sayang their children and stuffs* but somehow.. a little hard.. Anyway.. I shud thank u guys also.. The way u guys treated 3 of us.. the way how strict u guys treated us had finally made us the men n woman.. The way u scolded us.. punished us and stuffs.. That have made me called myself independent since secondary.. tat i can handle my stuffs myself.. i seek help from frenz.. and not family.. i dun wanna burden u guys.. anyway.. really thanks alot for bringing me up all these years.. haha.. dun worry.. mum.. u alwiz say that u're afraid that no1 gonna 'yeung' u when u gets old.. dun worry bout it la.. 3 of us know wat to do.. or at least i do.. and dad.. haha.. sorry for all the scoldings that i've done.. I knew that i shudnt be shouting at u at times.. but.. sigh.. i apologise.. but i really hope that u will know ur faults.. bro n sis.. nothing much.. just hope that u guys gonna have a great life ahead.. take care my family.. haha.. n here is the 1st time i guess.. the 1st time i say that out.. not verbally.. but at least something.. I Love You guys..

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Em.. 1 thing.. those who have read here.. u dun have to mention anything in front of me.. this is another private thing that i consider.. so.. if u wanna leave comment.. just leave it here.. hope that this is not gonna be another public topic.. Hope that u understand.. I just feel like writing it out here onli..

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Till the next time i blog again.......

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Carez

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*^-^* NicyaN *^-^*