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Hmmph.. nothing much.. just feel like writing something here.. today celebrated grandma's birthday (dad's side).. 81 years old liao.. Haha.. not really close to her la.. but this type of things alwiz make me feel a little bit of touching.. she is a lucky granny.. so many ppl celebrate with her.. she has 4 sons and 2 daughters.. my dad is the 4th son.. so.. 4 of the sons were here.. with almost all her grandchildren.. except those not in kl (like my sis) and got 1 of her daughter + 1 more daughter (grandfather got 2 wives =p) she even have great grandchildren liao.. lucky grandma.. still hav so many ppl celebrating with her.. =)

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know wat? these 2 days i've seen something.. omg.. it's really bad.. i've noticed a gal.. im not sure whether she was pampered or wat.. but somehow i feel that the attitude really got a little bit of prob.. i admit.. i might be like that the last time.. but luckily.. i've changed n now that when i look at ppl.. im relieved that im not like that.. this gal.. around the same age as me.. alwiz scold her bf for nothing.. omg.. i damn sad wei seeing her bf.. he is quite nice la actually.. talked to him around 5 mins.. (but im not really sure la.. just simple talk.. n dunno how their relationship works.. cant really comment much.. but i just think that a relationship shudnt be like that.. but not sure.. mayb some ppl prefer it to be like that =p)

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She scolded her bf for being late.. she scolds him for this and for that.. it's like everytime meet up.. the bf also kena scold de.. i bet the guy will counter 1 day.. that's just not the way man.. omg.. sad la.. she expects the bf to come fetch her whenever she calls or mayb gives a few hours earlier notice.. but somehow.. u have to fetch her.. omg.. isnt that being not understanding?? kesian man.. i told my mom.. if u have such a 'sam pou'.. sure gonna suicide.. lolz..

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then i've noticed this same gal again.. haha.. she can comment on many stuffs.. and will say that she hates this and that.. then start kutuk-ing ppl.. not those jokingly.. it's very serious type of kutuk.. for example.. got 2 old couple.. alwiz take the mic and choose songs to sing.. like karaoke la.. then she kutuk alwiz also the 2.. cuz they sing all the old old songs.. then when got her mother go sing.. she says her mother dunno how to sing la.. then those who r there have to suffer cuz the voice not nice n stuffs.. we have to bear it.. omg.. sigh.. just told her.. ppl happy mai enough lo.. dun la so bad.. think until ppl like tat.. together so many ppl.. happy mai good lo.. just give applause to support la.. at least came up to sing ma.. haihz.. dunno la.. i swear i wun find a gal like that to become my gf..

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Carez

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tiring..

OMG.. Im damn tired man.. dush.. eyes also heavy.. but dun feel like sleeping yet.. worked for 2 days.. then it's like morning go out.. came back.. and go out again.. so it's like.. exhauted man.. but takpe la.. wat to do rite? hopefully get to go out with frenz next week.. just noticed that im gonna leave very soon and i really have to plan my holiday well.. really well.. or else.. there will b quite a lot of ppl that i dun get to meet actually..

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nothing much here.. just that.. tomolo i need to work again.. then hopefully not next week.. or else im really a bit short of time liao.. anyway.. i'll be coming back awhile in dec.. really awhile.. got a camp in genting from 7th dec to 9th.. gonna be here on 6th.. hopefully going back a bit late.. still not confirm yet.. c how la.. will post it here =)

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So.. hehe.. let me crap a bit again.. relationship again.. have been thinking much la.. not recently.. it's all this while.. after hearing much.. thinking much.. and stuffs.. finally.. i get to come out a conclusion.. my very own conclusion.. theoritically.. no one is gonna get the best bf/gf.. it all depends on oneself..

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One just have to be contented.. i really mean contented.. we choose ourself.. who gonna be our bf/gf.. and after all.. we really have to try the best to keep them! setting a mindset that he/she is really the best.. cuz.. try to think bout it.. there r so many ppl around.. im just 21 years old.. i bet i still gonna meet so so many ppl in the future.. and if i were really to get a gf now.. i can bet that at least 80% i can meet some1 better in the future.. whether we compare on look, figure, attitude or anything la.. i bet there will sure be some1..

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However.. here.. in my opinion.. the most important thing is that.. we have to know wat we want.. and when we really found some1 who is suitable.. and that's it.. keep it! cuz no1 is perfect.. we might think that meeting some1 better in the future.. but have u ever tot of how many some1 u will meet in the future? how many ppl u have the chance to change n change.. somehow.. someday.. u'll find that u have already missed 'The Best' and sometimes.. there's really no turning back.. So.. we have to know wat's the best for us.. when we get it.. just try our very best to keep it..

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I read somewhere bout the paddy field in frenster.. the 'love and marriage'.. Interesting story.. i just write the summary out.. It says that some1 is given a task to pick the biggest paddy in the paddy field.. but he only can go forward and cannot reverse.. so.. as he go n go.. he found the paddy got bigger.. so he keep on walking cuz he tot that there will alwiz b a bigger 1 in front.. but somehow.. he have missed the biggest 1.. and ended up not getting the biggest paddy.. and that's love..

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when he is given the another chance to find the biggest corn in the field with the same rule.. no reverse.. this time.. he carefully walked and pick the 1 that he think it's big enough.. and that's wat he get till the end.. this is marriage.. =) interesting huh?

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Haha.. at least i learn something from here =) hey hey.. nothing much la.. just hav something to write over here to share with u guys.. i've missed once.. and now.. guess im looking forward.. ya.. it's time to move on.. wait patiently and look for another who i call 'the best'.. =) someday.. i know.. she will appear.. wish me luck! Blessings to all my fellow frenz.. for those who already have.. appreciates him/her.. for those who still finding.. dun worry.. someday.. 'the one' will come and u'll find love.. =)

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Carez

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Im back!

So.. Finally im back to kl! haha.. but guess wat.. u wun believe it! i've stayed at home since i came back on sunday.. went out once.. to cut hair.. then came back.. never really go out of house.. haha.. strange huh? wat's happening to me? omg..

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Anyway.. spent few days here.. watching movies.. sleeping.. and reading a book.. haha.. dunno how far i could read.. guess wun really go until have way the book.. as usual.. hmmph.. ohya.. tomolo i gonna start working for my mom.. not sure gonna be how long.. due to some reasons.. so.. have to help out in this short holiday.. anyway.. everyone knows that i dun really like it.. but nvm.. haha.. wun really blame it la.. still gonna enjoy my holiday!!! yeah!

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hmmph.. would like to bring up a topic.. an arguable 1 i think.. i have heard.. and i have also seen this happen.. so.. im just wondering.. is there right or wrong.. a guy, A who is in love with a gal, X.. and somehow.. the gal is tackled by the good fren of the guy,B who knows that his fren is in love with the gal.. So.. in this case.. is there any fault play by B?

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Im really not sure bout this.. mayb at times we really have to see the situation i guess.. cuz.. love comes and goes.. and we dunno when it gonna come.. and when it comes.. whether we realise it anot.. we're already in love.. and it's really hard to resist at times.. mayb if we talk bout ethics.. it's really wrong to tackle the gal that ur best fren is in love.. but somehow.. B is already in love with X.. and in this case.. probably X already rejected A.. So.. A suppose to hate B for tackling X?

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Personally.. i think sure got a little bit em song.. but somehow.. when we really think bout it.. as a fren.. as long as they r happy then shud b alright.. although i understand that it really gonna hurt alot.. but.. they r in love.. something that comes naturally (we assume that B and X is real k? dun tell me B just playing around with the gal).. shud they resist the feeling cuz of A? 2ndly.. Mayb we can think that God is just testing us or something.. or A and X just dun hav the faith.. Anyway.. just think that there's really no right or wrong.. we shudnt really hate a good fren for that.. i bet B and X will feel guilty also.. I bet they have struggled not to let A knows bout it also.. and finally.. it's suffering also rite? dunno la.. any comment?

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Finally.. Finish exam liao..

Hehe.. guess it has really been some time since i last update my blog.. Im here blogging again.. yay!!! Anyway.. it's 5.20am now.. And Im still here.. awake.. blogging.. few reasons i stayed up so late.. a guess in my room.. mayb wait till 6.30am to morning call someone.. after exam.. just finished cleaning up my room.. hehe.. and a game of dota (need to start training liao.. wat to do.. go back kl have to play with my dota gang rite? later i become so noob.. no good la =p)

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So.. How have i been? em.. so-so.. not really too good after all.. some of the subjects i did badly.. Anyway.. hopefully my pointer will be better than last sem.. and 3.0 and above of course.. =p not that hard actually this sem.. just that i really dun have the mood to study.. dunno y.. once my good memory already long lost.. couldnt really memorize even those formulas.. omg.. or mayb i really study last minute i guess.. haha.. 1 day b4 exam onli i really start studying.. b4 that i will sleep a day at least 10 hours and so.. hahaha.. really enjoying my study break huh? not good...

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Anyway.. past d.. dun really wanna talk bout it.. so.. I'll be coming back this sunday.. 12.30pm flight.. yay! gonna reach kl around 3pm.. hehe.. guess i gonna take a rest and something then onli start planning out my holiday.. still not sure when i gonna come back sabah actually.. hmmph.. still got something not sure over here.. cant really change my ticket yet.. sigh.. mom pulak like not that happy.. cuz need to change flight again.. sob sob.. cost me RM600++ to and fro this time after changing.. no good.. bad decision to go back.. shud have bought for CNY onli.. anyway.. it's ok.. =) cheers..

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Then.. let me bring up a topic here.. Hmmph.. how would i start.. haha..

Guess wat? i bet u guys heard b4 of even u did say b4 a phrase that goes "I am not becoming myself" or "Im changing to somebody else".. And then.. He will start telling himself or others that it shudnt be like that and so.. cuz he is no longer who he was..

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And now.. The very big question mark here.. personally.. (just tot bout it the other day) We are constantly changing.. Is changing to someone else is something bad? I dun think so.. it all depends.. in my opinion.. someone shud alwiz change for the better.. yes.. they shud.. not just bcuz they wanna be so called "himself" and start telling ppl and himself that he is no longer who he was.. Agree huh? Just a very simple example.. one who alwiz steal ppl's stuffs has his own personality.. can he actually says that he wanna keep his personality just bcuz that's who he is? no rite.. huh.. then.. hav u ever think of it when u alwiz say that "Im no longer who i was".. "Im not this kind of ppl".. frankly.. im one of them who alwiz say this.. but somehow.. after i tot of it.. hehe.. something goes wrong.. but at times.. it's really hard to change.. nvm.. just write it here to share with u guys.. mayb sometimes u can really think of it when u say that phrase whether it really affects ur decision anot =)

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Wong Theen Yoong

I have know this guy for many years liao.. i think when i was form 2 if im not mistaken.. then we had a small fight (I still rmb at the field) and it took us around 1 year like that to talk to each other again.. sigh.. apa lah.. just like a kid onli.. lolz.. back then wat.. i was a kid.. anyway.. after all.. same class since F3 till upper 6.. wow.. wat a long period huh? anyway.. i really appreciate this frenship between us.. and i know u do =) (hey hey.. not being gay.. just that.. buddy wat..) A guy who i can share everything with.. spent alot of good memories together.. drawing banner all night long in VI back then.. playing ping pong midnight in his house.. not onli him.. his brothers and also dad.. i really mean his dad.. wow.. haha.. then go out together.. double date alwiz.. haha.. really lots of stuffs.. and guess wat.. really need to thank u for alwiz being there to listen and giving advice.. haha.. frankly.. i think that u really very mature with all ur thinking and stuffs.. really a great guy.. a bit admire him in the way he do every stuffs.. really very into it.. the determination.. wow.. 1 word.. impressive.. A person who i can talk all night long till morning to share our stuffs.. and guess wat.. haha.. i think is one of the onli guy that i have really share my stuffs and cried out (i think a few times liao lo.. 2 or 3 times la) haha.. thanks man.. even the mother also treats me very good.. im thankful to have such a fren.. haha.. his mom even gave me a necklace bullet-liked with those god prayer or something.. haha.. just feel like own mom =) and I think really touched me..

"once Im very happy.. that u have urs.. and I have mine.. for i think both of us have the perfect pair for each other.. seriously.."

Haha.. really thank alot.. and i wun miss to find u when im back in kl de.. carez..

Frenz Forever

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